Finding..

Listening to Sarah Brightman's songs brought back memories.
Reading my friends' blogs reminded me of the time i had.
Browsing through your profile made me recall of the times we had.

empty.

A shell that is lifeless and void of feelings.

i have to leave Reality.
Escape back into the Realms of Dreams,
Swim back in to Ocean of Memories,

to seek what i lost,
to seek what i have missed,
to seek the soul that i left behind..

In the

Harsh and brutal Reality.
Sweet and Comforting Ocean of Memories.
Unsure and Confuse Realm of Dreams.
i have to hunt for you again.

for you,
make me recall the times i had,
make me remember the feelings i once owned,
make me feel this wonderful feeling again..

~*~


Aha..
i have found you at last.

..Now i can sleep in peace..

Of Brothers&Sisters and Friends

After a long overdue promise to my juniors back in CHS,my beloved Sec. School, i decided to pay them a visit, since it was the term break and i have lots of extra time to kill..

So i contacted ShihShin & SuePing up, telling them i be dropping by CHS this Friday(26/9). I begged SuePing to stay back and asked ShihShin to help me gather up all the new AJKs, as i freaking miss them all along with my buddies..^^

No sooner had i finished that conversation with them online, came CY's call asking whether wanna go out or not, as she was her holidays also. I pondered alwhile and told her that i be going to CHS on Friday and asked her to join me but i told her that i can only leave at 2pm.She said sure and all was done and sweet.

Friday came..
i picked CY up at her house at 12pm. Drove to CHS. Parking took forever. After registering our names at the guard house, we went our separate ways. She went to look for E while i went to the girls' canteen to meet up with my buddies.

SuePing,YenTeng was there. I wanted to hug SuePing but i doubt she want it in public so i gave her a little hug then turn to hug YenTeng. Man, i really miss both of them soo much..its like ages since i last met them, though i chat with SuePing in MSN often but nothing meant more then seeing them in person and talking to them.

The juniors were busy with their studies and the gathering was quite short. Man,JiaJun looked soo mature now! soo different from the one that i know last year. ShiYan and KaiSein both looked the same but the way they talked, its soo different, it sounded like they were really grown up.
Noted this is not a critique that meant they were childish before..

i asked for the new creative comic,JiaJun rushed to the seniroom to get it, the girls left as the Seni paper was about to start. i followed ShiYan to the room and saw that students were sitting there starting on their test, so i turned and walked away,JiaJun came running to me with the comic in his hand, i thanked him and he said he got to go for the test too. So i bid him good luck and goodbye.

back at the canteen,it was decided that SuePing,YenTeng and me will go to see ShihShin sing in the choir room at the sports complex. However, i met Pn Chin on the way and i stopped by and have a little chat. She looked younger, maybe because of her new hairstyle?haha..she thought i am studyin in S'pore and i told her i be going there for my Degree course but just then the auntie at the photostating shop interrupted and, thus, ended our conversation.

i rushed to the choir room but met SuePing and YenTeng waiting for me beside the hall. We walked up the stairs. YenTeng asked SuePing to leave us for alwhile as he got some things he wanted to talk to me. So SuePing left and we chatted. am not going to talk about the matters we discussed here because of what we promised,Brothers' honor..haha...

Few minutes later, a disgruntled E called me and asked me to hurry up as she n CY was waiting by the guard house. i told SuePing and YenTeng about it. They were not happy about it and asked me to stay back and accompany them. Thus, i was in a really bad situation. One side was my friends waiting for me to go to Midvalley with them, while on the other side was, one my Sister and,other, my Brother,my best buddies,both i can never live without. man, it was tough..and the next few miss calls did not really help me solve the situation.

In the end, i told my Sister and Brother that i really have to go but i quoted

" both sides are the flesh on my hand"

what should i do?

Soon,another call came and,a very irritated, E lectured me to go n meet them ASAP..so i have literally no choice to leave my Bro n Sis behind and headed for the guard house..

DAMN!!!i hate this..it's not fun doin this..my mood for a movie at Midvalley evaporated immediately after i entered my car. What's more the jam outside CHS was not helping. Both of them were agitated as CY forgotten to ask A,another friend,who's at Midvalley shopping at the time, to get one extra ticket for E's friend. However, i could not really care less about all of this.What i really care was what SuePing and YenTeng think and whether they were seriously mad at me for dumping them..*i knew that they were not too happy about me dumping them though*

Parked at Midvalley's basement and rushed up to the cinema as fast as we could. There we met A n her BF, and CY headed for the popcorn stand to get some drinks n food for the movie. We were watching "Mamma Mia".

Before entering the cinema, i called SuePing and YenTeng. SuePing did not pick up but i manage to speak to YenTeng saying that i am really really REALLY SORRY for dumping them. However, i composed a message full of 'Sorries' and sent to them.

Throughout the movie, all i can think of was, whether am i being forgiven and pray that they will not be soo pissed with me that they would want to severe any connections to me anymore..it really tormented me..

The movie was,actually, really good despite me feeling down. "Mamma Mia" is,sort of like a musical with songs from ABBA. The songs in the movie blended nicely into the plot and each song was an extension of what the character wanted to express in the show without being to mushy and long-winded.

i will leave the movie's review for now but i promise to give it justice soon.

my handphone never left my hands and i kept checking whether did SuePing or YenTeng replied my messages or calls.As the end of the movie approaches, i left the cinema and headed for the washroom with E,CY,A n A'sBF. After that, i called SuePing and YenTeng,again, to apologize.

After seeing E n A'sBF off the KTM, we left Midvalley. i drove A to Taman Jaya. It was pouring after dropping A off at A n W..The journey home was quiet. i did not speak much and CY was changing the songs in my Ipod to her leisure. DAMN,i felt restless.

Upon reaching home, i dropped my stuffs and headed out for dinner with my parents at the nearby steamboat.

..Man,only now i realise how much SuePing and YenTeng actually meant to me..

Random stuff

Biodata
First Name –Chay Jiang
Nickname - CJ
Name you wish you had –Hmm…Never thought of it…like the name I have now…
What do people normally mistake your name as – ‘Dragon Chicken Goat’(Chinese)…Auspicious name ya know…a combination of zodiac animals…
Birthday -15 October
Birthplace - Klang
Time of Birth – Too young that time..don’t know how to tell time yet…
Single or taken – Currently single…anyone interested? XD
Zodiac Sign – Libra.

Your Appearance
How tall are you – 183cm…never thought I’m that tall…
Wish you were taller –I’m happy with my current height,thanks…
Eye color - brown
Eye color you want-hmm…acid green would be nice…sapphire blue could be cool too…
Natural hair color –Black
Current hair color – Black
Short or long hair – Short and long…get the term?
Dye your hair a bizarre color – Actually thought of dying it red last time but then nah…too awkward..
Last time you did something dramatic with you hair –‘Shaved’ it because of National Service…Glasses or contacts - Glasses
Do you wear make-up –no…
Ever had hair extensions –no…never thought of having that
Paint your nails –no…no intentions to do that…

In the opposite gender
What color eyes –brown…green…blue…
What color hair –black?hm…any color will do except for weird colored one…
Shy or Outgoing –outgoing…
Looks or personality –I will go for personality…
Sexy or Cute –can I choose sexy-ish cute??^^ *grin*
Serious or Fun –both…can be serious at times and fun…
Older or Younger than you –would prefer younger than me..
A turn on –long wavy hair…
A turn off – bad breath…ew…

FavoritesFlower –lotus…
Candy – no…don’t have oneS
ong – Oldies?
Scent – no comment
Color – purple,black,white…
Movie – all kinds actually..
Singer –actually I like all except those that sing in unheard-able lyrics
Junk food-Kitkat, and recently developed a great craving for ice-creams…
Website –this site lor..
Location – can I not say? Sounds lik FBI is tracking those who do this tag…
Animal – dog!!

Others
Flowers or Chocolates –chocolates…I like something to fill my stomach…haha
Pepsi or Coke –both actually...
Rap or Rock –neither..
School or Work –School!!!work is hectic
Love or Money –Love…
Movies or Music –music is LIFE!
Country or City – both can?
Sunny or Rainy days –rainy…more romantic..bt no thunders or lightning..just rain pouring
Have you ever Lied –who doesn't?
Hurt someone close to you –yupz…
Broke some one's heart –you never know..
Had your heart broken –once…
Wondered what was wrong with you – ya..all the time…
Wish you were a prince/princess – nah…m happy enough with my current situation…
Liked someone who was taken –T.T..tends to happen to me..
Shaved your head –hm…twice I tink…once during primary and d other is during NS service Been in love -ya
Used chopsticks –yupz!
Sang in the mirror to yourself – ya…used 2
Ever cried over someone – yupz..over my NS buddies…whn I first came back…
Do you think you're attractive –no..not that narcissm
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose -hm...i don't know..hercules??
Do you play any sports –no playing sports for me…but I do swim^^

Frustrations...

fingers swollen
eyes sore
did that project with a full-hearted spirit
turned down with just a series of adding here and there..

what's wrong?
i am TIRED!!!


can i just throw it aside?

HELP ME!!!!

Of Closing Ceremony and Assignments

The Beijing Olympic ended with a huge pesta on the 24th August 2008 at the Bird's Nest. It was remarkably done and i congratulate the Director, Zhang YiMou and all of those,who were involved with both the Opening and Closing.

Beijing did us ,Chinese, throughout the world, proud!

There is only one bad thing about the Closing which was of the Broadcaster that kept on zooming out and show us the stadium, instead of what is happening inside the stadium. A very bad angle and bad arrangement of broadcasting.

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On the other hand coming back to reality. Am now currently loaded with assignments from various classes.

Hardest of all was the umbrella design set by T. No complains there except that it took me a whole day to hunt for umbrellas that of right color and size, along with the purchasing of black uniPaint markers, which is a rare find in any stationary shop, if you exclude those of the Art shops that cost a fortune.

Next up,would be of A Canvas painting and Scrapbooking for Color.
S Visual Diary and Children Book ranked third in the row of assignments...


Life can never be "better"

Of Beijing's Olympics Opening.

A ball of flame ran across the Bird’s Nest before the count down even begun and half-way through the stadium a hurling ball of fire came shooting down into the ground of the stadium floor. Beneath the audiences a sea of white light glowed in the dark to form two screens for the count down. Drummers hit the drums in unison and the classical sound of warring state drums echoed throughout the stadium. Then the count down begun.

Counting down…
60…
50…
40…
30…
20…
10…
9…
8…
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6…
5…
4…
3…
2…
1…

At ‘1’, fireworks went off throughout China and the Beijing 2008 Olympics Opening Ceremony is officially launched. The drummers continued the drumming, along with the chant of an old saying by Confucious, “ Friends come from afar, how happy we are.”

Just then, lights went out and the drumsticks held by the drummers emitted glowing red lights that looked like firecrackers in their hands. The sea of white turned into a myriad of glowing red lights. The lights came back and was lighting up the drummers excited expressions as they finished their queue in the Opening Ceremony.

The audiences were, then, brought through the Imperial Axis of Beijing on a screen. Fireworks blasted through the night sky in 1 minute separation. Being operated to represent the shape of a Foot. 29 great footsteps walked along the axis, from the Forbidden City to Tiananmen Square then into the Bird’s Nest, Beijing’s National Stadium.

Back inside the stadium, the 5 rings of Olympics glowed brightly in the black surrounding. From above 20 Apsaras came floating down around the rings that was slowly being lifted off the ground into an upright position. At the far end of the stadium came a sweet and melodious voice that came from a little girl in a vivid red dress. Singing ‘Hymn to my Country’, she smiled and stood upright. 56 children representing China’s ethnic groups held the flag of China to the flagpoles in the other end, where soldiers in green stood attentively. Upon receiving the flag from the children, they marched to the flagpole and raised it while China’s national anthem was being played. Reaching the top of the flagpole, the flag moved freely in the breeze that circulates the stadium and more fireworks went off on the roof of the Bird’s Nest.

Into the Artistic section for the Opening, a short film was being played on the screen describing the methods of paper making and drawings from only water and ink. As the film ended, out came a giant scroll in the middle of the stadium. Dancers, dressed in black, waved their arms on the blank canvas while a musician, dressed in Hans costume, played the gu qing behind them. A stroke from here and there, they danced to the ancient melody of the gu qing. A mountain soon appeared on the canvas along with a river. All the while, the scroll around them shone with images of ancient artifacts unearthed throughout the years. The finished product of the canvas was hoisted into the air for all to see and the lights around the stadium and on the scroll dimmed.

Their entrances were marked with loud footsteps and the folding of bamboo scrolls. Men in tall feathered-headdress and long grayish white robe marched into the stadium, each holding a bamboo scroll in their hands. The 3000 disciplines of Confucius bowed in unison as though paying homage and respect to their teacher and started chanting a famous Chinese proverb that sounded, “All those within the Four Seas can be considered as His brothers.”, all the time rolling and unrolling the bamboo scrolls to form tapping sounds. Behind them the scroll now opened to show the printing blocks of Chinese characters in square formation. As the chant of the proverb grew louder, the blocks moved up and down like the waves. Slowly forming the word “He” in both ancient and simplified versions. The end of the chant came when the blocks stop moving and displayed the image of Great Wall of China. Not long after, cherry blossoms bloomed across the printing blocks, showing the audiences a sea of pink. When everyone thought that the blocks were generated by machine, out came performers from beneath the blocks waving at the crowd, smiling.

Next, an entourage of musicians on a squared-platform performing the traditional music of the Peking Opera whilst four puppeteers danced around with their miniature puppets. The platform, was carried by performers dressed in warm-brown, entered a enclosure of lemon yellow. The performers forming that enclosure wore the costumes of a Xiao Er character in Peking Operas. They stood there and out of the blue laughed their hearts out when the music went off. The lights dimmed once again.

Out came a dancer on top of the canvas, suspending in the air by those that supported them underneath it. She was draped in yellow and green silk with a majestic yellow ornament, in the shape of a mini-vase, on her hands were the extensions of green and yellow silk. She waved them in the air in a way that acrobats do, both majestic and artistic. As she dances, images of the Silk Road of China was screened across the scroll, depicting camels, porcelain vases and tradable items.

Men in blue came running out from the far end of the stadium holding big planks of yellow boards. Upon connecting the boards, images of old ship appeared on the boards. The moved the planks up and down, imitating the waves on the sea. A dancer dressed in gold, orange and yellow walked onto the canvas and started using the ancient compass, created by the Chinese. This was the Maritime Silk Road. The Chinese character of ‘Cha’, Tea, was shown on the scroll, notifying the audiences that one of the well-known tradable items of the olden China was tea aside from silk. The final formation for the men, holding the planks, was of a ship-shaped image on the floor of the stadium. Again, the lights that danced on the ground went off.

When it came up again, it showed the interior of a Dynasty’s courtroom, with rows and rows of imperial women dressed in blue, yellow, orange and red and guards guarding the exterior of it. At the top of the pillars sat musicians, in vibrant colors, playing the pipa. Court music was played and the women walked in gracefully as they would have done in the olden days. Meanwhile images on the scroll showcased Tang dynasty imperial women. The lighting effects were extravagant. As the entourage came to a halt in the middle of the court, the pillars rose into the air as the lights around them were switched off. Dragons’ images came soaring up to the sky, as the pillar continues to go upwards, emitting golden lights of their own.

The group of performers walked away as the lights came up again to show a little girl and the famous pianist, LangLang, with a piano. The little girl played a small note as LangLang corrected her. Soon he was playing a masterpiece while she sits there looking on. Men in green suit came rushing out and surrounded themselves around the piano. They wore lights around them and switched it on as they ran about forming a Dove. Those that were involve in the wings section moved up and down showing that the Dove is taking flight. Not long after they came crowding themselves, once again, near the piano and formed a miniature Bird’s Nest. Standing in position for about 5 minutes, as a little girl floated across them with a kite in her hand, then, they began to slowly glide away into the darkness as the lights on them went off upon them reaching the sides of the stadium.

A white light shone the centre stage of the canvas, showing a Taichi master practicing TaiChi Quan. Around him glass walls were held up and a few other Taichi practitioners went with the rhythm. The glass walls showed colors of green, white and rich yellow behind the practitioners. At the blink of the eye, the glass walls were removed and thousand came running into the stage and formed a humongous circle around the canvas. School children now occupied the canvas, they sat, in a way as they would during lessons in school and listened attentively to the ‘teacher’ before them. The circle formation around them shifted and the performers ran around the canvas forming a different kind of formation, which represents the Heaven is circle whilst the Earth is square. On the canvas, the children colored the previously drawn artwork with colors of blue and green.

Few minutes later, the taichi performers left the stage as they eyed three astronaut that came floating down from above. The children, packed and ready to go home, looked at them happily and cheered on. The canvas was moved aside and a globe came protruding from beneath the stage’s surface in the color of blue. Performers were hung around the globe as the globe changes to the color of Earth, they ran across it in unison. The globe changed from blue-green to yellow then to red as the walls of the Bird’s Nest showed images of the solar system and more. At the tip of the globe, came two figures. Sarah Brightman and Liu Huan emerged on the globe and sang the Olympics theme song, “You and I” to the cheers of the crowd. Half way through thousands of smile faces shone around the stage as performers held up high images of the smiles of children all over the world on umbrellas.

The fireworks went off again as the end of the Artistic section of the Opening Ceremony. It was now the time for the athletes to march into the stadium. A total of 204 countries entered this year’s Olympics, starting with Greece and ending with China. The sequence of the athletes entering the stadium was according to the Chinese number of strokes for the first Chinese character of that nation. As they walk into the centre stage, the athletes walked across a multi-colored inkpad and onto the canvas, leaving multi-colored footprints on it. After an hour or so, speeches were made and oaths taken by judges and athletes and the President of China announced the official launching of the Beijing Olympics to the World with a booming voice.

Lastly came the lighting of the Olympic Cauldron. After about 6 or more torch bearers, the one who have the honor to light the Cauldron was of Li Ning, a famous gymnast and a National’s Sport Icon. He was lifted above the ground and into the skies. There he ran along the stadium wall, with it unrolling pictures after pictures of sportsmanship and the torch relay. The much anticipated Cauldron took the shape of a Chinese Scroll, stood majestically at the intersection of the stadium. With a single touch from the fire of his, the Cauldron was lit, thus, marking the starting of the Olympics in China.

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I actually cried as I was watching the whole event LIVE. The beauty of the ceremony and the effort and hard work behind it, of how the people of China or the Chinese population around the World dreamt of hosting the auspicious Olympic Games.

It is truly China at Her BEST! Zhang YiMou did a marvelous job and I urged those who never heard of this great man, go watch some of his directed movies, such as ‘House of Flying Daggers’, ‘Hero’, ‘Curse of the Golden Flower’ and much more.

The next host will have a hard time catching up to China’s Opening Ceremony.

Lastly,

GOOD LUCK BEIJING 2008!!

‘BEIJING HUAN YING NI’

Of #$@%&X's

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I HATE PEOPLE,WHO ACTS LIKE A WANNABE...

I HATE PEOPLE THAT RUNS TO SOMEONE ONLY WHEN THEY NEEDED HELP...

I HATE PEOPLE DITCHING FRIENDS FOR PERSONAL GAIN...

I HATE PEOPLE,WHICH PUTS ON A MASK AND NEVER LET YOU KNOW THE TRUTH...

I HATE PEOPLE MAKING OTHER PEOPLE FEEL BAD IN FRONT OF EVERYONE...

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just decided to freakin' express my unhappiness for the past forthnight...
bear with me please...