and YES! i am paranoid...

well creating its own record in my time of laptop and internet browsing, i was caught up with some computer junkies that turned out to be bugs, hiding within the lushy forest of my acer...god damn it! this bug was removed from its hidy with the software and praying hard it never will return to haunt my storage area that i relied on.

i am paranoid so i had to call someone and hogged on the house phone for 40 minutes and tell her my other dilemmas, which i believe might be an earsore for her.

"hey *insert cue name*, have you hear of this____*insert name of spyware/virus*, do you think it will remain here after i deleted it via anti spyware?"

ah, the rantings and scary moments...damn it..

i did not browse any X rated sites neither do i browse rubbish sites that i should not, i just logged on to friendster! and something like this turned up...gosh! i seem to be strucking the worst of pc lucks here...

pray that it will never appears again!!!

memories

a memory that is meant to happen

on a blissful day, two brothers went fishing by the river

for you, my brother.

ZOMG

well, nothing much happened lately. Life has been tough and toughier in RDI because as you progress higher up, the coursework get challenging and lecturers' demands is getting higher and higher...but aside from that, i am still quite happy with the daily life.

not to mention, the computer phobia hasnt actually subsided...which means that if there are any lagging while doing my work, i will freak out and go berserk! then slowly going back to my regular self. stress konon!

well, till then, stay tuned...lolz

ok...please spare me the lecture and all.
my absent from the internet,msn and mainly, my blog, during my holidays
is because i suddenly developed a FEAR of using computer.

maybe that's the side effect of using and staring too much at it last term.

anywayz, i try to get my stuff up ASAP, so for the time being please do bear with the
deadness of the blog...

到 。走

我到了天涯海角等你，
却遇不见你。




我到了。。。
可是你还没到。。。




凌晨的寂寞，
无人了解。

为我在草地上，
遥望着天空。

一个人，
空档的心。

满天的云，
冷落的我。



该走了。

好的。

歇

我无力了。。。


该放弃吗？
该放开吗？



走的话，就一了了之。
留下呢，就心痛。

该歇歇了，
心灵上的折磨难以抹去。

梦里，
压力统统出现。


恶魔，
毒蛇，
血腥的画面，
足让我作呕。


该休息了。。。
该到了。。。

Lost and Found

i was Lost.

In the midst of the Crowd,
i lose my directions.

You never left me.

i gave up Hopes and Wishes,
for they never came true.

You never left me but was by my side all the times.

i grew frustrated of Restrictions and Rules,
i became rebelious.

Yet, You are always there.

i, once, thought that You never exist.
You showed me Miracles.

i thought of letting go forever,
but You never let me go,
You held on to me still.

You sent Signs and Messengers.
Doing everything You can to pull me back.

Now,
i am home again.

You never cease to lose hope in me.
You stood by me always.
Showed me Signs and Messages.

i am home now.
i am, truly, home now.