Recently,my assignments are piling up on my table and each time it gets hard still to manage and to get my lecturer's approval on my work.Aikz..life's been tough..
Also, recently i went into a deep state of health concern.It all started with my unusual sorethroat and ulcers.The usual sorethroat i have would be of those situated near my thonsers,please excuse my wrong spelling of that word,do not have much knowledge on that,but this time the sore happens at night and in the middle of my throat.
For the past few days that freaking pain is roaming around my throat,from the middle section to the right then to the left and finally my whole throat.However pain only occurs when i'm swallowing my saliva,which is funny because the usual sorethroat would prevent me from even taking in food and water.
I went to the nearby clinic to have a check-up and to my astonishment,the doctor mentioned that my thonsers are quite red and he said that my sorethroat might be due to virus infection.I took the medicine home and started taking it on regular basis,just like what the doctor told me to.It never really helped with the sorethroat.
I panicked.My ulcers are less painful as days go by,however the sign of recovery seems unclear.I used all kinds of medicine on it but only the pain subsided and not the scaring.Only a week or so later,which is this few days,my ulcers begun to subside.Thank God!!
Aside from that,I was kinda in a very depressing mood for the past few days.It kinda lifted alittle when my throat begun to feel better.I don't know what is making me feel this way but it really bugs me.Because with that hanging over me,I can't seem to concerntrate on anything.What's more I am losing appetite for food!I hate this feeling but the more I fight against it the more resistence it seems to have on me.
It was then i started to get hallucinations that I might be having some really serious illness and might fall dead anytime.I told my mum and a few friends about it and their answers were identical.'You are stressed out with assignments and you are thinking too much!'That really did help me change my feeling towards my feelings.
However today my feelings is once again tested when i weight-ed my side on the scales earlier this morning.I lost 1 kg overnight,how is that possible?Then a perfect morning i thought it would be was spoilt by this really unpleasant feeling.DAMN!!I really want to straighten up myself and face the world ASAP and not being pulled down by this desprate feeling.There are chores to be done and assignments to rush.Around 11am i can't stand the feeling and i weight-ed myself on scales again and this time the results are unclear.73kg at first but then i weight-ed again 74kg.I am thinking is my mind playing a game on me or is the scales going haywire?
So i decided to take a chinese med. pill to calm myself down.That would be the terrible effect of depression on one's life and i am not going to let it do that again.Never Ever!
