Dec 30, 2008

Alright! the resume of my National Service Story will officially start now! Because i just keep having this thing hanging above me and it really bugs me that i can't even finish one decent chapter of my NS story straight went i arrived home from there, which is about 9 months or more...

ZOMG!!

anywayz, once i get at least 2 chapters done i will get it posted here or on a new blog, also, u might find some new addition aside from the NS stories. ^^

Will keep all readers up-to-date!!

Remembering National Service Series 5/Batch 1 HRAK,Malacca

This post was supposed to be posted yesterday (29/12) but i was caught up with something else so i did not have the time to do so.

Yesterday marked the 1st anniversary of me entering National Service in Malacca.
It was also then that i learnt to be really independant.
It was also then i realised that i was not in for hell but,in, for a life changing experience.

i will never regret the fact that i went into National Service for 2 1/2 months.
And i will never forget what my besties there in National Service, i miss u guyz!!!

Was thinking on starting a new blog, specially for my National Service Story and, maybe, short comic strips. Till then ciaoz...

Dec 25, 2008

鹿不再回头.The Deer will never look back again.

鹿回头,
情郎为生活远行,
回头遥望故乡,
心中想家也像伊人。
A deer looks behind it and saw,
A young man, travelling afar for his livelihood,
He looks back before his journey,
deep in His heart, He thinks of his family and, also, His lover.


我不再相信了。。。
this i will never believe again...

$%#@!#$%$%

-i lease my anger and emotions here, in this post, so it will be vulgar and freaking pissed, if you can understand my feelings now,you will know why.-
my kai-jie from NS was planning to visit KL during Xmas but because of her tuition, she decided to stay back and attend her tuition. Well, i told my parents that she be coming to visit so i am not going to Spore with them. So now i am gonna be alone for Xmas and 3 days afterward.


It really SUX!!!!

i am really pissed and want to just hit someone or just wreck the house.
i wanna lose my sanity for a moment and just lease it all out.

i can't accept the fact that you wanted to be just friends!
When u were the one that gave me hope and all!!!

i can't accept the fact that you said that you can't freaking concerntrate on your studies!!
When i did not even bother you during your revision time and exam period!!!!

i can't accept the fact that i can still sat down with you can chatted for 1/2 hour after that!!!
FUCK my idiotic gentleman attitude!!!!!

i have feelings too.
i might not seem to care but i just love you too much!!!

i want to hug you,
i want to be there for you, with you.

i don't want to be just FRIENDS!
i want to be your MAN!!

i loved thrice but this is the only time when i really feel the pain.


i can't freaking stand it anymore!!
i want to abandon my stupid gentleman behaviour!!
i want to just be ME!!!
i want to be demanding!!!
i want to be a SPOILT BRAT now!!!!

but why?
why can't i?!

无言.Speechless

现在是圣诞节
大家都在被窝里睡着了,唯有我呆着。
It's Christmas now.
Everyone's asleep,only i am still here. Awake.

没了。
破了。
碎了。
It's Gone.
It's Spoilt.
It's Unrepairable.

我的心在哭泣。
那鲜血般的眼泪,
不停的流出。。。
My heart is crying.
Its tears are the blood that flows through my veins,
dripping none stop...
我恨我自己。
因为让自己沉迷太久了。
因为让自己爱得太深了。
因为让我爱上不该爱的人。
i hate myself.
For sinking in too deep.
For loving too much.
For loving someone that's impossible to get.

不哭。。。
不,我是想停的,而是眼泪已无法再流了。
Stop crying...
No, i wanted to stop, but the tears are just pouring itself out.
忘掉以前,做回朋友吧。
我无法做到,因为我爱得太深了。
Let's be friends and forget the past.
i can't do it, because i loved you too much.

哭吧,哭吧。
眼泪流了,就可以睡了。。。
Then, cry.
Let the tears flow till you are asleep...

Dec 20, 2008

Summarizing Term 3

Alrite!
Summing up Term 3 before i fully enjoy my 2 week holiday...
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Graphic Design
Assignment 1 :
Presentation on a selected Designer,which i chose Daniel Brown, a London-based Web designer. He's a big shot and came a long way before he became what he is now.
Assignment 2 :
Typography Lettering.
My concept was to use animal paw prints and alphabets. Simon wanted us to play around with negative and positive space. Done with Markers and was really high for few hours.
He later asked us to create alphabets ranging from A-Z. We, those attending Graphic Design class, were really 'screaming' over it but we managed it somehow. Here's mine.
This took me 4 hours or so and the aftermath was that i was really freakin' high on Markers AGAIN!!!
Assignment 3 :
Creating a 5-series stamp and first day cover based on the animals in Zoo Negara. For that we went on a fieldtrip to Zoo Negara on a rainy day.
My concept was to use dots as dots can be used to interpret as tracking devices on animals. My slogan was 'Dotting our Existence',i mean animals like to be free and definately not to be marked as one of those endangered ones and needed to be track. Therefore the animals that i chosen were endangered ones and are natives to Malaysia or from the tropical regions.
Top:(Left to Right) False Gharial,Orang Utan, Flamingo
Below: (Left to Right) Sun Bear, Malayan Tapir
The above is the First Day Cover, i used the Zoo Negara's map and the animals that were illustrated on the stamps were marked on the map with the help of different colored Dots.
Digital Illustration
Assignment 1:
We were asked to create 3 logos for a toy company on our first lesson as the first assignment. I came up with these:
The monkey was the first and i created it while looking around A-Mac and spotted a typography assignment by one of the seniors. The blocks and stars were of random creation.
Assignment 2 :
Gradient Mesh. Using the Gradient Mesh on Illustrator to create a still life replica of a photo found online.
Assignment 3:
Use alphabets to create a typography image. I decided to go for a wedding-theme image after watching Mamma Mia, yes i watch the movie 3 times and still loves it!! I tried to duplicate the scene of Sophie's wedding but it turned out, it takes to much time so i just create something simple like this :
Assignment 4:
Create a window display for a game parlour. The must criteria was that to include 'There's always something new' and 'Coming Soon'
I decided to use a favourite game of mine as the main game advertisement. PacMan! I changed the circle 'food' that PacMan hunts for into square and the borders from square to circle.
3D Techniques
Assignments done:
Basic Poly,Lighting Testing,Creating UVs and a few more that i cannot remember.
Final Assignments:
Toy design. I wanna do something simple so i just played around with the sphere and it turned out like this after Tom helped me with the lighting and render. I named It, Welve, after Wall-E and Eve.
The last Final assignment was using Masha and pose her into 5 different poses and expressions.
Image Processing
Assignment 1 :
Monster. Create a monster from parts of animals.
After much considerations, i decided to go with a monster that is similar to Medusa but a lot more grizzly like. It has blood sucking mouth and a fuzzy attitude. It looks cute, hahaha...
Daffee wanted me to go for a kind of effect that's like someone snapping a photo of the monster. It looks like this on the computer but when printed it became dark and the effect's gone...
Assignment 2 :
Draw your friend's potrait using only brushes or basic Photoshop tools.
i chose Apurva while she's stuck with me...Her's face was one of the easiest part of the whole assignment. It was really hard to create her hair as it was curly and yet straight, so it was kinda hard.
By the final week of this assignment, Daffee decided to add a twist. He wanted us to create a random image of our friend in a different expression or totally different look. I chose to make Apurva into a man, which i think makes her look like Michael Jackson, sorry Apurva.
The Final Product was printed on A2 and her original photo was placed side by side with the male version of Apurva.
Assignment 3 :
He gave us 3 choices for this: Pareidolia, Supernatural and Celebrity Toy. i chose Celebrity Toy. After giving Daffee various selections of celebrity that might be made into a doll, he decided to chosose Dato' Michelle Yeoh, which really suits me. i am a big fan of hers!!
Making her doll wasn't easy. i had a really hard time making her look 3D. The final result was reasonably satisfying but i still think that there is room for improvements.
The second assignment was to use the famous Manaki/Zhao Cai Cat to create a Christmas Card.
My idea was to use the figure and re-create it into a Christmas spirit one. So i added presents on the heels of the cat and added a big red bag replacing the gold its holding and add on a santa's hat. Daffee later wanted me to put it on a table in a living room with a Christmas Tree.
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That sums up all of my Term 3.1's assignments.
So till 4.1 starts, i be taking a well-earned break.

Dec 5, 2008

Updates

Recently, i have been really working hard on all of my finals. It's tough as i have only 2 weeks time to finish everything,including printed and approved.ARGH!!

This is because i will be leaving for Hainan Island on the 13th to 17th Dec for a short vacation with the BIG gang,my family,uncle's family,grandparents and auntie's two children. A total of 13 people will be charging into Haikou's International Airport soon. We have been anticipating this trip for like 3 years? Since the day my grandpa mentioned it casually over dinner to my parents.

The main objective, of us going there, would be the wish of my grandpa wanting us, his grandchildren and his own children to see the place he was raised and to, maybe, visit some of his relatives there. Owh ya, i think we still have a house there, which is currently being lived in by my grandpa's sis, so that makes her,um...,my grand aunt?


Well enough of that, i had to go back to my Dollie and Miao already. Ciaoz~

Dec 2, 2008

等待

天上的星星照耀着黑暗的夜空。

已是深夜了。

你不睡觉,
却埋力的读书,
好应付明天的会考。


美丽的月亮在迷茫的夜空看守。

已是三更。

我在书房里,
赶着功课,
好应付明天老师检验。


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都说

山伯与英台,三天差别,英台逼嫁文才,山伯病倒身亡。

嫦娥与后异,相爱,因日月差别,不能再一起。
牛郎与织女,凡人与仙女,翻天条,只于七月初七相会。


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我可以为你,
化蝶,因英台为会山伯,愿成蝶,与他长久相随。

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我可以把让天空成月全食,
因猛烈的太阳方能会雪白的月亮。

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我愿意等待喜鹊桥的出现,
才与你相会。





我是真心的爱你。。。

妒忌

我好妒忌。。。
看到你们的背影足足,让我觉得你们是否还把我看在眼里。
是否还把我当成朋友。

*

我只怪我自己当初没和大伙儿常参在一块。
我不想怪谁。
我只怪我自己。

*

那一天听到你们开心的谈说,

我不经沉静了一会儿。

可是不到一分钟后,你往我方向看,问道:

“诶,你还好吧?为何那么的安静?”

“。。。”

“嘿,你还好吗?有事烦着你吗?”


我从沉静里醒过来。


“啊,没有啦。自是想着功课而已。”


“别想了。才刚上完课就想着功课。你啊,是无药可救啊!”


“哈哈。。。”


“诶,要吃么?”

“要!”


“那去点菜呀!”




那一刻起,
我不再认为你们抛弃我。

Nov 28, 2008

i believe everyone around has heard of the Tragedy that happened in Mumbai, India in the news or by mouth. It's really sad and sickening to see or hear such a thing happening.

i am deeply shaken and sick over this massacre.

Though i have no power over it but i really wanted to express how i felt over this Tragedy.

Therefore, i am changing my blogskin to black and my profile photos in my all of my accounts to Candles to mourn this dreadful Tragedy.

My deepest sympathy to those who lost family members or loved ones in the Tragedy.

Nov 24, 2008

emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
emo emo emo emo emo...
today i felt weird.
as if i might lose one of my buddies.

i am worried.

please don't make me go through another drama again..

Please...




PS: i just cried. maybe because it was of the song i am listening..

Nov 20, 2008

First the Car then now the Laptop are both acting up...

It was first my car, the 10 year old or more, Satria.

She, well i would refer the car as a She because Satria reminds me of a girl, sorta played a 'prank' on me by suddenly goin' dead while i was just about to reach my sister's tuition center. It just went off without any warning and the moment She stopped, out came a buzzing noise from the radio compartment.

I told my mum about it and She was sent to the foreman for servicing for 2 days. When she returned home, She look fantastic! The foreman informed my uncle that the Satria has, no apparent, problems and was working just fine.

However, it was a week later that She started acting up again. It was rainning and the daily traffic jam that occupied the road to the SMART tunnel was very BAD! i was driving happily or rather grumpily home when the first strike came by. She went dead in the middle of the road after i braked. i restarted the car ASAP and went off the road again. Then the second strike came. She died in the middle of the road again and this time a car almost hit me in the back. i switched the emergency light on and i restarted the car again. Then it was all smooth till after the SMART tunnel's toll. Just when i was about to exit the toll and headed out onto the road, She died AGAIN! This time at the divider of the road. It was scary as cars behind me were honking and i am taking up the whole road. i restarted it AGAIN and then i speed all the way and out onto the roads of Old Klang Road. While waiting for the traffic light to turn green, She striked AGAIN! i panicked and was shaking as the cars behind me honked louder. i restart and drove as fast as i could to reach the exit to the Highway that will cut into Puchong. Then She striked AGAIN! This time luck was by my side as She died while i just arrived at the traffic light. After that i dare not stop and just sped my way home. Upon reaching my front gate, i sighed and took everything out of the car and headed inside the house. i told my dad about Her and She was once again sent to the foreman.



My lappie/laptop, Acer. Let's call it a Him alright?

He's barely a year old and just today when i was all hot and wanted to surf the net, He just won't connect for me! It's weird as he never behaves like that so i called up my two computer expert cousins and told them my problem. They told me to repair the internet connection, there is a button there by your connection icon or restart my laptop. However, after both of these were done, He still would not stay connect for me for long. It flickered and blinked. It can detect the network but just cannot seem to stay connect to it. i was worked up as i need to get some infos for my class tomorrow so i had no choice but to use the cable to connect my lappie to the internet.

After having my dinner, He connected to the internet. Wireless-ly. Then he disconnect and connect again. But for the time being, he is well-behaved.

Nov 12, 2008

小丑

我是小丑

我娱乐各位可是我是悲伤的

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戴上面具,
画上彩妆,
换上服装。

成了另一个人。

微笑的面孔,
广阔的心胸。
为你带来欢笑,
再多悲伤也不放在脸。

*

伤痛的人,
被逗得笑了。

忧愁的人,
解开了内心。

失落的人,
找回了信心。

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唯有我暗地里留着眼泪,所有的痛往心里埋。

12112008

been kinda emo lately.
though most of you might not know that, but i try to keep it confined to only my bedroom.
i do not feel that it is fair for me to unleash all my sadness onto my friends.

it's been a really hectic period in college.
assignments after assignments were given almost instantly after the previous one is done.


it's kinda good as this immune-d my.
it's been a real comfort that i still have my pals around me.
it's been really nice that i can still laugh and talk like i used to.


o ya, i owe all of you out there a few posts to date. The Genting Outing,the Gang Overnight,My Bday and also a most recent event, Raffles' Halloween party.

Cry

Finally
I cried

After holding back so many days, it finally came pouring out.

*

Vulnerable.
Sadness engulfed me.


*

The only medicine to this was that I kept on working.


Moving.
Walking.
Thinking.


*

Wait!

Thinking?!

It only makes me think of You so much more.


Nothing penetrates my brain now.

*

It hurts me.
It breaks me.
It destroys me.


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Empty.


A hollow shell.
Working but not concentrating.


A blank pair of eyes.
Staring but not recording.

A broken heart.
Beating but not feeling.


我终于哭了。。。

忍住那么多天的眼泪终于留下了。

悲伤
痛苦
失望


统统发泄了。。。


我未尝为了爱而流泪

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多么的好,
多么的美。


*



那么的深,
那么的痛。


*

没了。
绝望了。

Oct 28, 2008

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i fell into a Dream...
a long and undeciding Dream...
i never dreamt it would end like this...
*
you letting me know i had a chance
yet, break me down once again.
*
i have nothing more to offer.
*
i am now vulnerable...
so vulnerable
any hints of you allowing me back into your world makes me feel alive.
*
No
i am not heartbroken.
i am glad we talked
i am glad that we are best friends
i am glad that you told me sooner before i sank in too deep.
Please don't worry about me.
i am fine...

Oct 22, 2008

ET's going back Melaka today. He's not staying in KL for a night before leaving for home.
Well, i think. We will just have to meet some other time..

22102008

I stared.
Cars passed me by,
People rushing by.
Numb
*
Why can't i feel a thing?
Ask yourself, boy!
But why, owh, why are you crying, stupid boy!
i don't know..
What?! you don't know?
yeah, i just don't know...
*
Tears drenched my face.
Stop! Please stop!!
My heart aches,
there are wounds that can never heal.
It bleeds in silence.
who can ever tell?
*
Stop..pleaseee stop...
i can't stop.
Don't think of It again...
i can't
Why?
hurt!
I guess the wound is deeper than i thought.
maybe it is...
But it doesn't mean that you have to CRY!
...
Owh!! You're hopeless.
...
I'm leaving.
...
GoodBye! Patch yourself up! I'm not going to do it AGAIN!
...
*
Rain now drenched my body.
Making my tear-stained face wet.
I screamed...

Oct 20, 2008

201008

okayy...sorry for not updating that often this week as i was and still is rushing to get my assignments done before the 30 Oct as i be goin to....BALI!!

anyways, i promise a new update later on about my birthday and also many other random stuff that happened..lolz...

Good news!! En Ting also known as ET aka my best bud frm NS will be coming to KL on Wednesday!!!Woot Woot!!! man, i anticipated this day for almost, lets say 6 months?, since we parted from HRAK NS..i just can't wait!!
Also, my 'long-lost', ahem, sis who dumped me in Msia n left for Spore is coming back for her holidays!!!YEAH!!!!


Alrighty thats all i will post now as i have to go back to S's assignment. Till then ciaoz..

Oct 15, 2008

Officially IT!!

Hear Ye! Hear Ye!
Today
C J
is
officially
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18
Adulthood arrived!!
Woohoo!!!
that means i just had 18 years on this Earth?!
hm..am i old already??
i will post a full post of 15 Oct tomorrow.As i am now sleepy and tired..
it's a really nice day!!

Oct 14, 2008

Wonderful Day that ended F***inly

Today was the day when Christopher,Richard & mua went to the beloved Zoo Negara of M'sia..lolz..

We met up @ Kl Sentral about 8.30am but somehow everyone aside from YuPeng,unexpected addition, arrived late. After some McDs, the three of us left for WangsaMaju via LRT while Yu Peng went back to the hostel, as he need to attend an interview somewhere in KL.

Upon reachin Wangsa Maju LRT Station,we waited for RapidKL U34. IT took an entire hour for the bus to appear,BUT!!, we had to wait for the driver to take his time in the restroom, which was another 1/2 hour,ISK!!!!

11am sharp,we aboard the long-awaited bus. 5 minutes barely passed when we arrived at the main enterance of the Zoo. i, admittedly,was amazed by the whole new structure that the Authorities built, which would be the Car Park,lolz. The main enterance though is still the same old one. i hadn't visit the Zoo since i was like 3 year-old or so.

We coughed out rm15 as the enterance fees. DAMN,15!! well, i thought maybe the whole Zoo would be nice and attractive so the fees increased. It was, however, a utter HUGE dissapointment.

The road was the same, the exhibits were the same,the animals,well if i'm right to assume, SAME!! The changes only, appeared when we started to hunt for the Fast Food Restaurant. It was situated by the lake 15 years ago but now it's amongst the midst of exhibit of some kerbau.

The Zoo photo session took the whole day. It was 2pm when we left the Zoo and board the Metro16 that headed for Centre Market. Christopher asked me whether i would like to join him and Richard in KLCC as he is goin' to the Maxis booth to cut his old line. The bus took us to Dato' Keramat's LRT Station. We left the bus and headed for the Hostel.

Richard bathe while Chris and i just lay around his room. i simply lovveee YuPeng's pillow. It's soo hard and comfy..lolz...hahaha...after layin' for 1/2 hour or so, we decided to move our lazy bum and walked back out to the LRT station and board the next LRT to KLCC.

Our plan was to watch a movie then have dinner so that when all is done it would be about 7pm and chris can meet his sister. Before goin' for the ticket booth, we pondered on what to watch. We ended up by playin' scissors-paper-stone to decide what to watch. If i win, we watch MammaMia. If Chris wins, we watch Death Accuracy. i won.

The movie was GOOD!! It was 6.30pm when the movie ended. We hunt for food @ the FoodCourt in KLCC. Both Chris and Richard had Chix Rice while i had Sizzling YeeMee. After that i bid goodbye to Chris and Richard and left for the LRT.

The queue was frightening. But thank god i managed to squeeze into the LRT when it came. i can hardly move a muscle in the compartment. It was like a can of sardines. Upon reaching Pasar Seni Station, i had to 'swim' my way out. Outside rain was pouring like MAD. i dashed across the road to the bus station to board RapidKL U69.

This was where the F*** part begins. Brave yourself. i join the mini-queue outside the bus. i stoood beside a lady while behind me was a man. When the bus driver opened the door, everyone squeezed into the bus. i was in between that man and the lady. when the lady managed to get in the bus, i felt something leavin' my right pocket.

And lo and behold, i saw that man grabbing my ipod pocket with a straight face, as if he had not done any wrong. Well, if you did like to know how i knew it, partly because my ipod pocket had a semi-leather skin and if you had it in your pocket, you will definately know when it leaves your pocket, also, i still had my earphones on my ears and the music were booming. When that JACKASS took my ipod,the earphone came off, which means the music just died.

i turned around and saw his FILTHY hands on my ipod pocket! i snatched it back immediately. His grip wasn't tight and when i snatched it back, i just looked up and rushed to enter the bus. That BIMBO had the nerves to tap me on my back and apologize!!!! F*** him!!!! He said, " Sorry ar Bang/something" but i din't F***in' care. i headed for a vacant seat at the back and sat in it.

That guy had the guts to board the bus and sat just around the corner where i was. i glared at him. i kept my ipod, handphone all into my bag and took out my umbrella. well, i was thinking if he had the nerves to do the crime again, i'm gonna scream like a banshee and whack him with my umbrella.

However he did not do anything and left the bus upon reaching Bintang.


This attempt-theft was the first in all of my 18 years. i thought i understand how my friends felt when their stuff were lost by theft or so but this time, i feared that my stuff will 'fly' into someone else's hand. You can hardly imagine how i felt when i saw my ipod was grabbed by a total stranger with the motif of keeping it forever.


Well, lesson learned.

NEVER EVER USE MY IPOD OR HANDPHONE WHILE QUEUIN' TO BOARD A BUS. If possible, leave wallets and other precious belongings in bag and clutch to your bag like it's your life until you board the bus and get a seat.


*sorry if i had many grammar errors in this post, as i am shaking with anger while typing all of this.*

Oct 12, 2008

UNGU + Monster = very very RANDOM post

damn..this is gonna be one of those really REALLY random post.

LoLz...

was browsin' through the Net hunting for a Monster that suits my taste till i fell into Purple House@CHS's bloggie..man, they really took 2008's Sports Day seriously.

Well, not that we,the previous members, slack but you can really see the effort in it. And its kinda sad that they did not win this year's Champion. i guess they wanted to live up to us, the seniors', expectations. Note: we did put quite a lot of pressure on them.But, anywayz, they did a good job,though the Sport Days was like something ages ago, i hope that the upcoming ones will strive for UNGU!!

make Purple House the Alpha Dog in the Fields of CHS.


owh, by the way, i had better continue my hunt for the Monsters of my DREAMS. i bet everyone in my class now is spending sleepless nights,not? looking for animals' parts to be disect and morph into one huge,monstrous Darling.
Any animals up for a little plastic surgery?



till then,peace out..>.<

Oct 11, 2008

音乐飘满天! @ Let there be Music!

i think i will save the trouble for my readers out there to hunt for the MV of the two songs i posted earlier on. So here it is:

記事本 @ Diary

女人何苦为难女人 @ Women, why must you hurt me?

Hope you liked it^^..

Oct 10, 2008

女人何苦为难女人@Women,why must you hurt me so?

可以爱的人那么多
你为什么非要我这一个

痴心
是无法比较的
你的情深无法否认我的爱浓
真的爱都不容易收
成熟的人谁说一定不怕痛

爱人
是不能够让的
你的天真叫 我不知该怎么说

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样有最脆弱的灵魂
世界男子已经太会伤人
你怎么忍心再给我伤痕

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样为爱颠簸在红尘
飘忽情缘总是太作弄人
我满怀委屈却提不起恨


可以爱的人那么多你
为什么非要我这一个

痴心
是无法比较的
你的情深无法否认我的爱浓
真的爱都不容易收
成熟的人谁说一定不怕痛

爱人
是不能够让的
你的天真叫我 不知该怎么说

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样有最脆弱的灵魂
世界男子已经太会伤人
你怎么忍心再给我伤痕

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样为爱颠簸在红尘
飘忽情缘总是太作弄人
我满怀委屈却提不起恨

我无力再争
只觉得失落好深

男人该说话的时候
总是无声

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样有最脆弱的灵魂
世界男子已经太会伤人
你怎么忍心再给我伤痕

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样为爱颠簸在红尘
飘忽情缘总是太作弄人
我满怀委屈却提不起恨

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样有最脆弱的灵魂
世界男子已经太会伤人
你怎么忍心再给我伤痕

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样为爱颠簸在红尘
我满怀委屈却提不起恨

女人何苦为难女人

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For those that knows Chinese, the meaning of this lyrics are meaningful and true.
For those who don't,well,i just explain it briefly.

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This song talks about love.
Focusing more on the love triangle,that happens so often nowadays.

Why must you step into this relationship knowing that you had to fight to get your Love?
Why must you,of the same gender,fight with me to get the same guy?

We both endulge ourselves in Love more,when, compared to Men.
Though i really hate you for doing so but i cannot bear to voice out my dissapointment
Or lease my frustrations on you.

You, undoubtly, was one that fell for Him when he switched on his charms.

You understand the fact that we are both weaponless and hurt in the triangle.
But why must you step into this?
When you can get someone better out there?

I am restless and weak.
When a Man has to voice out,
He, rather, stays quiet.

And why must you hurt me again?
When I am scarred and, already, fragile.

Women,why must you hurt me so??

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This song, in general, is kind of a emo/sad/depress song. i came to hear it when i was watching the TV series,the same Chinese title,on Astro. Its a really good story and i was, instantly, hooked on the theme song.

The main reason for me posting this up, was just to lease out some of my frustrations that i am facing now,especially in the relationship catergory.

。爱。恨 。恋 。

爱过

一场轰轰烈烈的

一夜里
开始了

电话里密语
短讯里诺言
见面时礼物

快乐时光




一瞬间
没了


不接的来电
无力回短讯
礼物丢了

哭泣 看见
伤痛 无法了解


恍如,一把利刀在我心中插着


带着面具 面对现实
开心的面 伤心的心
无力了
失落了
没了 哭了



太伤感




半年


复原了




爱你
怕失去
默默地等

记事本@Diary

离开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关于你
你讨厌被冷落
习惯被守候
寂寞才找我

我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在
卑微的后头
等你等太久想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么

爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好
像上瘾的毒药
它反覆骗着我

爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
矛盾心里
总是强求
劝自己要放手
闭上眼睛让你走
烧掉日记 重新来过

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decided to use Chinese to show my feelings now. This is one really soothing song and it's nice to hear when one is down or lonely. Tittle of my post is the title of the song,well except for the '@ Diary' part.

Briefly talk about this song. It's about being brave to let go.

Oct 8, 2008

081008

nothing changes.

still alone in this empty Shell.

no one to hug.
no one to share.
no one to cry on.

Sadness often kills the Happy cells within.
Stress ruins the Carefree feelings.

Often the soul escapes from this empty Shell,
leavin' the sad,empty and hopeless shell behind.

the Soul would often dive into Its Ocean of Memories.
there It can swim in Happy memories.
leaving aside the Sad ones.

Bored.

then, It will fly into the Realm of Dreams.
jumping through Nightmares and Dreams.

Bored.

It will then comes back to the empty Shell.
resuming Life in Reality.

Oct 6, 2008

Summarizing Term 2

Alrighty..
Term3 is approaching so i decided to sum up my Term 2 assignments.

Colors for Designers
Assignment 1:
Scrapbookin'. For this assignment, i created a Pizza-themed scrapbook or,wait, scrapBOX.
In it holds all of my other mini-assignments, including Simultaneous,Adcance and Receding colours,Color Wheel and Tint,Tone and Shade.
Assignment2:
Canvas. We were supposed to choose one artist that is to our liking and 'copied' his style in drawing and painting the canvas. i've chosen Stuart Davis. i was attracted to the way he uses vivid colors and his abstract way of painting and drawing.
i used the theme: waterworld. Thus, Flounder,Hai is born!


Creativity and Problem Solving
Assignment 1:
Creating a piece of Art Movement Poster. i've chosen Art Nouveau as i simply love Mucha's artworks.


Assignment 2:
Sound Excercise. These were all done and compiled in my portfolio bag that i handed in to Simon. So i can't show you all my work. However, the assignment is about sounds.
There were Bees making Love,Violin&Flute,ChinaVsAmerica,Air-Con and Shhhhh...
Assignment 3:
Children Book. We were told to do some research on myths and legends of our culture and create a story of our own.
mine was inspired by the legend of the Dragon Mother.
Design Investigation&Culture
Assignment 1:
Posters for United Benettons. We are asked to start an ad-campaign for UB. I chose 'Peace for Olympics' as my theme as the Olympics was just around the corner that time and rumours were flying saying that there be activists trying to destroy the Games.
My subjects for the posters were the Fuwas. All five of them.
i'm sorry that i can't show my posters as i think that it's gruesome and violent.
Assignment 2:
Mural. We were given the theme:Anti-Racism. It was a team assignment. Apurva n i cracked our heads to try and think of a nice painting that would represents the theme.
After much rejection and cracking of our heads,we came out with..

Assignment 3:
Umbrella. This was the hardest among all,this include classes too. My friends and i focused more in this than any of the ones that were given.

In this assignment, we were suppose to design an umbrella based on a design era. Eventually i seek refuge in Art Nouveau.*i think i'm in love with the era*
Aside from the umbrella,we had to add in a research book and 3 other back up items. My back up items i used poster,Ipod layout design and umbrella cover,which was added in last minute by our lecturer.

Posters

i did not snap a photo of the Ipod layout design and the Umbrella cover as i was in a rush to finish up the whole project.

Oct 3, 2008

A night made SPECIAL by you GUYZ..

just finish bathing after coming back from the Gathering @ OUG.


Here's how it goes..

GuoJie wanted to plan a mini-gathering for a few of us,old chums @ OUG.It was first decided that it would be on monday night, BUT, i m off to Genting so it was postpone to friday,BUT,>< Anthony and SiewFai be going to Genting, so after much discussions, we decided to put it on

.Thursday night @ OUG's Citrus Park.
At approximately 7.20pm, i headed out to Kinrara's Shell station(formerly know as Project station) to pick GuoJie up. After him, i was told to fetch SiewFai, also, even though he sprained his ankle.
We reach Citrus Park @ about 8pm? The parking fee was ridiculously expensive.
RM4!!!man, just for a stupid parking lot..hish..
Anyways we headed for ABC restaurant just across the parking lot and waited for the Others to arrive.
GuoJie was hungry so he ordered Fish'n'Chips while SiewFai and i ordered drinks. We waited, and waited, and waited.. No sign of ThengJee,KoonRui or Anthony.
It was only about 8.45pm or 9pm, did they appear. They sat down and ordered drinks. We chatted abit and crack jokes. Anthony was going on about shisha,GuoJie wanted to play DoTA, while the Others, me included were just there talking.
Anthony,seriously, wanted some shisha and after much persuassion and begging, we decided to pay and head to Steven's Corner at the other side of OUG.
Finding for parking there was a ISSUE. As the PasarMalam is on, so we had to hunt for one. After two cars hitted my Right and Left side-mirrors, did i manage to get one parking lot. Upon reaching Steven's, we ordered drinks and waited,again, for Anthony & co.
They arrived after 15 min. and,to Anthony's dissapointment,there were no shisha available.Thus,we resume our chit chatting about very random stuffs..We also 'bullied' him into paying for us as it was his idea to come here at the first place.
It was about 10.30 or so, when Anthony gave Edward a call asking him to join us. We were running out of topic to talk about so i left and waled around the PasarMalam abit. It took Edward 30 mins to reach OUG, which included the time for parking and all.
However, Edward did not stay long. He had to fetch his cousin sister so he just hang around for 1 min or so and ushered Anthony to follow him home, as he was staying over at his place.
GuoJie and the Others then suggested that we all go to Edward's place. We drove past Old Klang Road and onto BK3 or so. We stopped twice and upon the second stop, SiewFai and i were cursing and feeling really tired. So we call GuoJie and told him that we were leaving. So we left them by the roadside waiting for Edward.
i drove SiewFai home and, later, drove home speeding. As it was few mins to Midnight and i had the chills in my spine.
*~*
Though it was nothing BIG or FANCY but it really made my day.
So far, most of my holidays were spent by helping my grandma with her cleaning and staying at home doing nothing.

Oct 1, 2008

Tag by SuePing

Instructions, Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What Are Your Nickname?
CJ..Dragon Chicken Goat?um...Dragon?haha..i have lots during Primary though..

2. What Is Your Most Favorite Thing To Do?
Read..draw..sing..sleep?

3. What Kind Of New Do You Read?
um..i generally read all...

4. What Is Your Favorite Color?
black..white..purple...

5. Is There Someone In Your Heart Right Now?
yupz...but m not telling anyone now..haha..not even that special someone knows...

6. Do You Believe You Can Survive Without Money?
NO!! imagine this scenario, goin' college by public transport costs about RM3 or so..materials can go up to Rm300..so just for my education, i don't think i can survive that even if my meals are rubbish..

7. What Are You Afraid To Lose The Most?
FAMILY!! FRIENDS!! um...lose my SANITY?

8. What Do You Feel Like Doing Right Now?
nothing particular actually...just wanna relax..

9. If There's Someone That You Love, Would You Confess To Him/Her?
when the time is right, you will know..hehe

10. List Out 3 Good Points Of The Person Who Tagged You.
Happy-Go-Lucky...Caring...can go nuts with me..haha

11. What Are The Requirements That You Wish From Your Other Half?
at least understand the fact that i am usually hidden in my piles of assignments and that my family members come first...

12. What Is The Thing That Will Make You Think That He/She Is Bad?
have to think..

13. If You Had To Eat One Thing For The Rest Of Your Life, What Would It Be?
mum's cooking..haha

14. If You Had A Choice To Be Rich Or Happy, Which One Would You Pick?
of course Happy!! if m rich but scared for my life always, i doubt i live long..

15. If You Have A Chance, Which Part Of Your Character You Would Like To Change?
um..stubborn??

16. How Do You See Yourself In 10 Years Time?
i don't know divination or fortune telling, so i'll just let faith decide..

17. What Is The One Thing You Love About Yourself?
...

18. If You Can Bring Only One Thing Along With You To Another World, What Would It Be?
the relationships that i had..

19. Failure or Archievements?
Well, i think when there's Failure, then comes Archievements or Success..



I TAG...Anthony,SaoWen,YewFai,Daryl,Kenneth,Joey,Jesslyn and Richard.