Oct 28, 2008

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i fell into a Dream...
a long and undeciding Dream...
i never dreamt it would end like this...
*
you letting me know i had a chance
yet, break me down once again.
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i have nothing more to offer.
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i am now vulnerable...
so vulnerable
any hints of you allowing me back into your world makes me feel alive.
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No
i am not heartbroken.
i am glad we talked
i am glad that we are best friends
i am glad that you told me sooner before i sank in too deep.
Please don't worry about me.
i am fine...

Oct 22, 2008

ET's going back Melaka today. He's not staying in KL for a night before leaving for home.
Well, i think. We will just have to meet some other time..

22102008

I stared.
Cars passed me by,
People rushing by.
Numb
*
Why can't i feel a thing?
Ask yourself, boy!
But why, owh, why are you crying, stupid boy!
i don't know..
What?! you don't know?
yeah, i just don't know...
*
Tears drenched my face.
Stop! Please stop!!
My heart aches,
there are wounds that can never heal.
It bleeds in silence.
who can ever tell?
*
Stop..pleaseee stop...
i can't stop.
Don't think of It again...
i can't
Why?
hurt!
I guess the wound is deeper than i thought.
maybe it is...
But it doesn't mean that you have to CRY!
...
Owh!! You're hopeless.
...
I'm leaving.
...
GoodBye! Patch yourself up! I'm not going to do it AGAIN!
...
*
Rain now drenched my body.
Making my tear-stained face wet.
I screamed...

Oct 20, 2008

201008

okayy...sorry for not updating that often this week as i was and still is rushing to get my assignments done before the 30 Oct as i be goin to....BALI!!

anyways, i promise a new update later on about my birthday and also many other random stuff that happened..lolz...

Good news!! En Ting also known as ET aka my best bud frm NS will be coming to KL on Wednesday!!!Woot Woot!!! man, i anticipated this day for almost, lets say 6 months?, since we parted from HRAK NS..i just can't wait!!
Also, my 'long-lost', ahem, sis who dumped me in Msia n left for Spore is coming back for her holidays!!!YEAH!!!!


Alrighty thats all i will post now as i have to go back to S's assignment. Till then ciaoz..

Oct 15, 2008

Officially IT!!

Hear Ye! Hear Ye!
Today
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18
Adulthood arrived!!
Woohoo!!!
that means i just had 18 years on this Earth?!
hm..am i old already??
i will post a full post of 15 Oct tomorrow.As i am now sleepy and tired..
it's a really nice day!!

Oct 14, 2008

Wonderful Day that ended F***inly

Today was the day when Christopher,Richard & mua went to the beloved Zoo Negara of M'sia..lolz..

We met up @ Kl Sentral about 8.30am but somehow everyone aside from YuPeng,unexpected addition, arrived late. After some McDs, the three of us left for WangsaMaju via LRT while Yu Peng went back to the hostel, as he need to attend an interview somewhere in KL.

Upon reachin Wangsa Maju LRT Station,we waited for RapidKL U34. IT took an entire hour for the bus to appear,BUT!!, we had to wait for the driver to take his time in the restroom, which was another 1/2 hour,ISK!!!!

11am sharp,we aboard the long-awaited bus. 5 minutes barely passed when we arrived at the main enterance of the Zoo. i, admittedly,was amazed by the whole new structure that the Authorities built, which would be the Car Park,lolz. The main enterance though is still the same old one. i hadn't visit the Zoo since i was like 3 year-old or so.

We coughed out rm15 as the enterance fees. DAMN,15!! well, i thought maybe the whole Zoo would be nice and attractive so the fees increased. It was, however, a utter HUGE dissapointment.

The road was the same, the exhibits were the same,the animals,well if i'm right to assume, SAME!! The changes only, appeared when we started to hunt for the Fast Food Restaurant. It was situated by the lake 15 years ago but now it's amongst the midst of exhibit of some kerbau.

The Zoo photo session took the whole day. It was 2pm when we left the Zoo and board the Metro16 that headed for Centre Market. Christopher asked me whether i would like to join him and Richard in KLCC as he is goin' to the Maxis booth to cut his old line. The bus took us to Dato' Keramat's LRT Station. We left the bus and headed for the Hostel.

Richard bathe while Chris and i just lay around his room. i simply lovveee YuPeng's pillow. It's soo hard and comfy..lolz...hahaha...after layin' for 1/2 hour or so, we decided to move our lazy bum and walked back out to the LRT station and board the next LRT to KLCC.

Our plan was to watch a movie then have dinner so that when all is done it would be about 7pm and chris can meet his sister. Before goin' for the ticket booth, we pondered on what to watch. We ended up by playin' scissors-paper-stone to decide what to watch. If i win, we watch MammaMia. If Chris wins, we watch Death Accuracy. i won.

The movie was GOOD!! It was 6.30pm when the movie ended. We hunt for food @ the FoodCourt in KLCC. Both Chris and Richard had Chix Rice while i had Sizzling YeeMee. After that i bid goodbye to Chris and Richard and left for the LRT.

The queue was frightening. But thank god i managed to squeeze into the LRT when it came. i can hardly move a muscle in the compartment. It was like a can of sardines. Upon reaching Pasar Seni Station, i had to 'swim' my way out. Outside rain was pouring like MAD. i dashed across the road to the bus station to board RapidKL U69.

This was where the F*** part begins. Brave yourself. i join the mini-queue outside the bus. i stoood beside a lady while behind me was a man. When the bus driver opened the door, everyone squeezed into the bus. i was in between that man and the lady. when the lady managed to get in the bus, i felt something leavin' my right pocket.

And lo and behold, i saw that man grabbing my ipod pocket with a straight face, as if he had not done any wrong. Well, if you did like to know how i knew it, partly because my ipod pocket had a semi-leather skin and if you had it in your pocket, you will definately know when it leaves your pocket, also, i still had my earphones on my ears and the music were booming. When that JACKASS took my ipod,the earphone came off, which means the music just died.

i turned around and saw his FILTHY hands on my ipod pocket! i snatched it back immediately. His grip wasn't tight and when i snatched it back, i just looked up and rushed to enter the bus. That BIMBO had the nerves to tap me on my back and apologize!!!! F*** him!!!! He said, " Sorry ar Bang/something" but i din't F***in' care. i headed for a vacant seat at the back and sat in it.

That guy had the guts to board the bus and sat just around the corner where i was. i glared at him. i kept my ipod, handphone all into my bag and took out my umbrella. well, i was thinking if he had the nerves to do the crime again, i'm gonna scream like a banshee and whack him with my umbrella.

However he did not do anything and left the bus upon reaching Bintang.


This attempt-theft was the first in all of my 18 years. i thought i understand how my friends felt when their stuff were lost by theft or so but this time, i feared that my stuff will 'fly' into someone else's hand. You can hardly imagine how i felt when i saw my ipod was grabbed by a total stranger with the motif of keeping it forever.


Well, lesson learned.

NEVER EVER USE MY IPOD OR HANDPHONE WHILE QUEUIN' TO BOARD A BUS. If possible, leave wallets and other precious belongings in bag and clutch to your bag like it's your life until you board the bus and get a seat.


*sorry if i had many grammar errors in this post, as i am shaking with anger while typing all of this.*

Oct 12, 2008

UNGU + Monster = very very RANDOM post

damn..this is gonna be one of those really REALLY random post.

LoLz...

was browsin' through the Net hunting for a Monster that suits my taste till i fell into Purple House@CHS's bloggie..man, they really took 2008's Sports Day seriously.

Well, not that we,the previous members, slack but you can really see the effort in it. And its kinda sad that they did not win this year's Champion. i guess they wanted to live up to us, the seniors', expectations. Note: we did put quite a lot of pressure on them.But, anywayz, they did a good job,though the Sport Days was like something ages ago, i hope that the upcoming ones will strive for UNGU!!

make Purple House the Alpha Dog in the Fields of CHS.


owh, by the way, i had better continue my hunt for the Monsters of my DREAMS. i bet everyone in my class now is spending sleepless nights,not? looking for animals' parts to be disect and morph into one huge,monstrous Darling.
Any animals up for a little plastic surgery?



till then,peace out..>.<

Oct 11, 2008

音乐飘满天! @ Let there be Music!

i think i will save the trouble for my readers out there to hunt for the MV of the two songs i posted earlier on. So here it is:

記事本 @ Diary

女人何苦为难女人 @ Women, why must you hurt me?

Hope you liked it^^..

Oct 10, 2008

女人何苦为难女人@Women,why must you hurt me so?

可以爱的人那么多
你为什么非要我这一个

痴心
是无法比较的
你的情深无法否认我的爱浓
真的爱都不容易收
成熟的人谁说一定不怕痛

爱人
是不能够让的
你的天真叫 我不知该怎么说

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样有最脆弱的灵魂
世界男子已经太会伤人
你怎么忍心再给我伤痕

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样为爱颠簸在红尘
飘忽情缘总是太作弄人
我满怀委屈却提不起恨


可以爱的人那么多你
为什么非要我这一个

痴心
是无法比较的
你的情深无法否认我的爱浓
真的爱都不容易收
成熟的人谁说一定不怕痛

爱人
是不能够让的
你的天真叫我 不知该怎么说

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样有最脆弱的灵魂
世界男子已经太会伤人
你怎么忍心再给我伤痕

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样为爱颠簸在红尘
飘忽情缘总是太作弄人
我满怀委屈却提不起恨

我无力再争
只觉得失落好深

男人该说话的时候
总是无声

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样有最脆弱的灵魂
世界男子已经太会伤人
你怎么忍心再给我伤痕

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样为爱颠簸在红尘
飘忽情缘总是太作弄人
我满怀委屈却提不起恨

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样有最脆弱的灵魂
世界男子已经太会伤人
你怎么忍心再给我伤痕

女人何苦为难女人
我们一样为爱颠簸在红尘
我满怀委屈却提不起恨

女人何苦为难女人

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For those that knows Chinese, the meaning of this lyrics are meaningful and true.
For those who don't,well,i just explain it briefly.

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This song talks about love.
Focusing more on the love triangle,that happens so often nowadays.

Why must you step into this relationship knowing that you had to fight to get your Love?
Why must you,of the same gender,fight with me to get the same guy?

We both endulge ourselves in Love more,when, compared to Men.
Though i really hate you for doing so but i cannot bear to voice out my dissapointment
Or lease my frustrations on you.

You, undoubtly, was one that fell for Him when he switched on his charms.

You understand the fact that we are both weaponless and hurt in the triangle.
But why must you step into this?
When you can get someone better out there?

I am restless and weak.
When a Man has to voice out,
He, rather, stays quiet.

And why must you hurt me again?
When I am scarred and, already, fragile.

Women,why must you hurt me so??

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This song, in general, is kind of a emo/sad/depress song. i came to hear it when i was watching the TV series,the same Chinese title,on Astro. Its a really good story and i was, instantly, hooked on the theme song.

The main reason for me posting this up, was just to lease out some of my frustrations that i am facing now,especially in the relationship catergory.

。爱。恨 。恋 。

爱过

一场轰轰烈烈的

一夜里
开始了

电话里密语
短讯里诺言
见面时礼物

快乐时光




一瞬间
没了


不接的来电
无力回短讯
礼物丢了

哭泣 看见
伤痛 无法了解


恍如,一把利刀在我心中插着


带着面具 面对现实
开心的面 伤心的心
无力了
失落了
没了 哭了



太伤感




半年


复原了




爱你
怕失去
默默地等

记事本@Diary

离开随身携带的记事本
写着许多事都是关于你
你讨厌被冷落
习惯被守候
寂寞才找我

我看见自己写下的心情
把自己放在
卑微的后头
等你等太久想你泪会流
而幸福快乐是什么

爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
日记本里页页执着
记载着你的好
像上瘾的毒药
它反覆骗着我

爱的痛了
痛的哭了
哭的累了
矛盾心里
总是强求
劝自己要放手
闭上眼睛让你走
烧掉日记 重新来过

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decided to use Chinese to show my feelings now. This is one really soothing song and it's nice to hear when one is down or lonely. Tittle of my post is the title of the song,well except for the '@ Diary' part.

Briefly talk about this song. It's about being brave to let go.

Oct 8, 2008

081008

nothing changes.

still alone in this empty Shell.

no one to hug.
no one to share.
no one to cry on.

Sadness often kills the Happy cells within.
Stress ruins the Carefree feelings.

Often the soul escapes from this empty Shell,
leavin' the sad,empty and hopeless shell behind.

the Soul would often dive into Its Ocean of Memories.
there It can swim in Happy memories.
leaving aside the Sad ones.

Bored.

then, It will fly into the Realm of Dreams.
jumping through Nightmares and Dreams.

Bored.

It will then comes back to the empty Shell.
resuming Life in Reality.

Oct 6, 2008

Summarizing Term 2

Alrighty..
Term3 is approaching so i decided to sum up my Term 2 assignments.

Colors for Designers
Assignment 1:
Scrapbookin'. For this assignment, i created a Pizza-themed scrapbook or,wait, scrapBOX.
In it holds all of my other mini-assignments, including Simultaneous,Adcance and Receding colours,Color Wheel and Tint,Tone and Shade.
Assignment2:
Canvas. We were supposed to choose one artist that is to our liking and 'copied' his style in drawing and painting the canvas. i've chosen Stuart Davis. i was attracted to the way he uses vivid colors and his abstract way of painting and drawing.
i used the theme: waterworld. Thus, Flounder,Hai is born!


Creativity and Problem Solving
Assignment 1:
Creating a piece of Art Movement Poster. i've chosen Art Nouveau as i simply love Mucha's artworks.


Assignment 2:
Sound Excercise. These were all done and compiled in my portfolio bag that i handed in to Simon. So i can't show you all my work. However, the assignment is about sounds.
There were Bees making Love,Violin&Flute,ChinaVsAmerica,Air-Con and Shhhhh...
Assignment 3:
Children Book. We were told to do some research on myths and legends of our culture and create a story of our own.
mine was inspired by the legend of the Dragon Mother.
Design Investigation&Culture
Assignment 1:
Posters for United Benettons. We are asked to start an ad-campaign for UB. I chose 'Peace for Olympics' as my theme as the Olympics was just around the corner that time and rumours were flying saying that there be activists trying to destroy the Games.
My subjects for the posters were the Fuwas. All five of them.
i'm sorry that i can't show my posters as i think that it's gruesome and violent.
Assignment 2:
Mural. We were given the theme:Anti-Racism. It was a team assignment. Apurva n i cracked our heads to try and think of a nice painting that would represents the theme.
After much rejection and cracking of our heads,we came out with..

Assignment 3:
Umbrella. This was the hardest among all,this include classes too. My friends and i focused more in this than any of the ones that were given.

In this assignment, we were suppose to design an umbrella based on a design era. Eventually i seek refuge in Art Nouveau.*i think i'm in love with the era*
Aside from the umbrella,we had to add in a research book and 3 other back up items. My back up items i used poster,Ipod layout design and umbrella cover,which was added in last minute by our lecturer.

Posters

i did not snap a photo of the Ipod layout design and the Umbrella cover as i was in a rush to finish up the whole project.

Oct 3, 2008

A night made SPECIAL by you GUYZ..

just finish bathing after coming back from the Gathering @ OUG.


Here's how it goes..

GuoJie wanted to plan a mini-gathering for a few of us,old chums @ OUG.It was first decided that it would be on monday night, BUT, i m off to Genting so it was postpone to friday,BUT,>< Anthony and SiewFai be going to Genting, so after much discussions, we decided to put it on

.Thursday night @ OUG's Citrus Park.
At approximately 7.20pm, i headed out to Kinrara's Shell station(formerly know as Project station) to pick GuoJie up. After him, i was told to fetch SiewFai, also, even though he sprained his ankle.
We reach Citrus Park @ about 8pm? The parking fee was ridiculously expensive.
RM4!!!man, just for a stupid parking lot..hish..
Anyways we headed for ABC restaurant just across the parking lot and waited for the Others to arrive.
GuoJie was hungry so he ordered Fish'n'Chips while SiewFai and i ordered drinks. We waited, and waited, and waited.. No sign of ThengJee,KoonRui or Anthony.
It was only about 8.45pm or 9pm, did they appear. They sat down and ordered drinks. We chatted abit and crack jokes. Anthony was going on about shisha,GuoJie wanted to play DoTA, while the Others, me included were just there talking.
Anthony,seriously, wanted some shisha and after much persuassion and begging, we decided to pay and head to Steven's Corner at the other side of OUG.
Finding for parking there was a ISSUE. As the PasarMalam is on, so we had to hunt for one. After two cars hitted my Right and Left side-mirrors, did i manage to get one parking lot. Upon reaching Steven's, we ordered drinks and waited,again, for Anthony & co.
They arrived after 15 min. and,to Anthony's dissapointment,there were no shisha available.Thus,we resume our chit chatting about very random stuffs..We also 'bullied' him into paying for us as it was his idea to come here at the first place.
It was about 10.30 or so, when Anthony gave Edward a call asking him to join us. We were running out of topic to talk about so i left and waled around the PasarMalam abit. It took Edward 30 mins to reach OUG, which included the time for parking and all.
However, Edward did not stay long. He had to fetch his cousin sister so he just hang around for 1 min or so and ushered Anthony to follow him home, as he was staying over at his place.
GuoJie and the Others then suggested that we all go to Edward's place. We drove past Old Klang Road and onto BK3 or so. We stopped twice and upon the second stop, SiewFai and i were cursing and feeling really tired. So we call GuoJie and told him that we were leaving. So we left them by the roadside waiting for Edward.
i drove SiewFai home and, later, drove home speeding. As it was few mins to Midnight and i had the chills in my spine.
*~*
Though it was nothing BIG or FANCY but it really made my day.
So far, most of my holidays were spent by helping my grandma with her cleaning and staying at home doing nothing.

Oct 1, 2008

Tag by SuePing

Instructions, Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What Are Your Nickname?
CJ..Dragon Chicken Goat?um...Dragon?haha..i have lots during Primary though..

2. What Is Your Most Favorite Thing To Do?
Read..draw..sing..sleep?

3. What Kind Of New Do You Read?
um..i generally read all...

4. What Is Your Favorite Color?
black..white..purple...

5. Is There Someone In Your Heart Right Now?
yupz...but m not telling anyone now..haha..not even that special someone knows...

6. Do You Believe You Can Survive Without Money?
NO!! imagine this scenario, goin' college by public transport costs about RM3 or so..materials can go up to Rm300..so just for my education, i don't think i can survive that even if my meals are rubbish..

7. What Are You Afraid To Lose The Most?
FAMILY!! FRIENDS!! um...lose my SANITY?

8. What Do You Feel Like Doing Right Now?
nothing particular actually...just wanna relax..

9. If There's Someone That You Love, Would You Confess To Him/Her?
when the time is right, you will know..hehe

10. List Out 3 Good Points Of The Person Who Tagged You.
Happy-Go-Lucky...Caring...can go nuts with me..haha

11. What Are The Requirements That You Wish From Your Other Half?
at least understand the fact that i am usually hidden in my piles of assignments and that my family members come first...

12. What Is The Thing That Will Make You Think That He/She Is Bad?
have to think..

13. If You Had To Eat One Thing For The Rest Of Your Life, What Would It Be?
mum's cooking..haha

14. If You Had A Choice To Be Rich Or Happy, Which One Would You Pick?
of course Happy!! if m rich but scared for my life always, i doubt i live long..

15. If You Have A Chance, Which Part Of Your Character You Would Like To Change?
um..stubborn??

16. How Do You See Yourself In 10 Years Time?
i don't know divination or fortune telling, so i'll just let faith decide..

17. What Is The One Thing You Love About Yourself?
...

18. If You Can Bring Only One Thing Along With You To Another World, What Would It Be?
the relationships that i had..

19. Failure or Archievements?
Well, i think when there's Failure, then comes Archievements or Success..



I TAG...Anthony,SaoWen,YewFai,Daryl,Kenneth,Joey,Jesslyn and Richard.