Is SICK~

damn..
was sick for so many days..really hate the feeling..
no mood..
no inspiration...
T.T...
hate it!!!

131009

"有时在多不满，不开心，即使有泪也要往肚子里吭"

有时人之常情，
难免容易显露出来。

男人大丈夫，流血不流泪。
顶天立地，挺起胸膛来。


=再难的事，我都可以去应付=
:D

It's raining and i can't sleep~

Well it is really raining and i just can't freakin' take a short nap, wonder why..hm...
anywayz, for those that follow this bloggie here, which i doubt many will, might have noticed that i have been away since like late sept? and havent been updating?!

well, to say the truth, Yes! i haven't been updating and, to say another cruel,blunt fact, i was LAZY!!!haha...

anywayz, i am suppose to be doing my work for SDS and not to mention, school work now but i decided to just let it go for another few hours and rush like a mad horse AGAIN..lolz..

just to pop by and say hello! and note i am still alive, and will update fully later..ciaoz

UPDATE!

omigosh~
time flies so freaking fast this term especially! never even realised that it is almost the end of term with just 3 more weeks to go till submission date..O.O

till date, i still have D's Princess and the Pea drawing, remaining one poster design for his class, F's 12 designs which i still have 3 more to go, and informations too!! A's magazine, praying really hard that he will approve all of my pages' layouts and last but not least, W's Swift's webbie..O.O

STRESS!!!!

especially webbie, my god, since day one when i learnt Flash, it has never been my cup of tea so to say because i just don't have the damn patience to sit down in front of the computer and wait frame by frame...

the other assignments are still manageable, preferable D's work because it is more hands on..and i realised one thing very obvious! i am drawing throughout this term! drawing children illustrations here and there..this term is full of pencil sketches and redrawings..

i pray hard that my work i have done so far will be approved, pretty please? i just want an early start to my holiday thats all...

PS: will be going to Melaka for the holidays ^^v

To go or not to?

should i go? or should i not?

i don't feel like going anywhere soon but then of late, my parents have been going on about 'shipping' me off to Aussie, which till date i still don't find appealing, i feel i still need a longer time to make this major decision seeing that i made a few mistakes of late.

i truly believe that now isn't the right time to talk about all this degree overseas and all. not to mention that no matter how much i tried to grasp my own timetable back, it just seems to float away again, again and AGAIN! my goodness, that's bad.

Uncondition

爱是一种需要，却不一定要得到，

Love is a necessity, but it is really not a must to have it,

只要你觉得快乐就好，梦会温热眼角，

If only you feel happy about the decision, but in dreams tears might still fall

让回忆像水草般缠绕，却总能让人勇敢不少，

Let those memories surround you in a tight knit, however with this, you are stronger.

爱是一种需要，聚散却没办法预料，

Love is a necessity, whenever will we be together or apart, we will never know,

只能在心里做个记号，直到哪天 遇到，

Why not just make a mark in your heart, if in future we do meet,

还会是同样的味道，下雨也好驱风也好，

It will still be the same feeling, no matter what happens,

心想着就能不会难熬

Even if you think about it, it will never be that hurtful.

This is part of lyrics i find it really meaningful. It talks about unconditional love for someone. If you are willing to let that someone,whom you loved deeply,seek his/her happiness in life even if their future partner is not you, and be there to cheer for him/ her, it is truly a wonderful and magical energy.

And yes, it do hurts at times but if you are willing to endure it to ensure that someone leads a happy life, are you willing to do so?

Your future depends on your decisions now

Well, it's high time i blog in english rather than in chinese *insert cue for Jiam's "It's about TIME!"*, much has changed since the day the start of term till now, 1 month has already gone and i am still counting the days to my holiday, lolz, who doesn't want a vacation.

This term is one of those terms in Raffles that is really stress and demotivating. Not one but a few of us 6.1s are screaming the workload eventhough it's only a month into the term. Not to mention that we are seniors already! The batch 6.1 seems so high up in the Raffles hierachy. We strived hard for 5 terms already and this term seems abit demotivating, not sure why but most of us really do feel so.

Last term's holiday was a blast, thats all i can tell you. I had an early break as my assignments were done way way early and i managed for ONCE in my entire time in Raffles to have a stress/assignment free two weeks break! I took on a small project during the holidays and the deathline is due next week and my layouts are not even done yet! gosh!! but aside from that, i really do have a wonderful time working on this mini-project and having a freaking good time during my holidays.

Then comes the start of term 6.1, well, maybe it's because of the first week's blues, my 1st assignments are all a FLUNK! yes you heard me! FLUNK! omigosh, it's really depressing because i definately know i can do so much better. Especially the look on F's face during my presentation, it was agonizing, i don't know about my classmates but i can definately sense the dissapointment in her look when she saw my final work. However, i gave my word to her that i will definately do a better job for my finals and this time i mean it!

On the other hand, my lifestyle is changing nowadays. I am trying to be more 'independant' ,so to say, because i wanted a more hands on life. It's kinda tough to do so when you are stuck at home, but nevertheless i am now in charged of my own things: laundry, etc., which i am really enjoying it very much!

One thing different about this term is that, i can really sense the caring feeling amongst us 6.1s, maybe not all but a few. Week one back in Raffles was suddenly a hard time for me because the subjects were, well TOUGH! It was then you really see true friends. They are friends that are willing to spend time to listen to your woes and pains, they are friends that is always willing to give a helping hand in your assignment when they see you struggling with it.

These few days, my parents have been really on about the topic of me going abroad to studies, i don't know what made them all enthu about this but i somehow don't find it comfortable. I have barely finish my Adv. Diploma here in KL and they are already telling me about life abroad. Well, we've been through this conversation back when i was in 3.1 and i just don't know why i am taking this topic offensively, maybe it's because i am facing my own assignment crisis here and there they are talking about life overseas. But one thing's for sure, i am standing firm on my decision that i will decide to stay or not to stay when the time is right!


It now dawns to me that my future is really depending on my current decisions now and i hope that i have made the right decisions in prior time so that i will never regret it at the end of time.

I am rekindling the flame that gone out in me. I am striving for a better performance. I will be the one deciding my own fate and future~

无常

太阳在猛烈，都需要下山。

月亮也会有阴晴圆缺。

人生

无常

佛家道理，常说到无常。

无常，

只得是生老病死。

事实常常在变化，一有机会就得紧紧地握住，

不是随便放开，因为机会只有一次，走了就不会回来。

有机会做自己喜欢的东西，

好好珍惜，

努力！

珍惜~

每一刻，

因为人生无常，事事都在变化。

New term!

6.1..

sounds so old and high up in RIC.



i can still remember vividly last year April, when i step in the grounds of RIC, i was still so naive and ignorant about things around me.i remember the nervousness that engulfed me when i entered my first class, Design Principle.



Coming back to reality,nothing beats the relaxing feeling as,believe me, RIC peeps rarely have time to really relax and take things easy when assignments come flooding onto our desks. Time is really a joker, one year passed and look at me. Haha, i am still the same old self with no changes. Except that i have already spent 5 terms in RIC and still counting.



Assuming that i be graduating next March, definately i will feel down and missing RIC, see if you believe, but i have a strong feelings for places i have been. damn, what an emo post this turns out to be...lolz...was thinking for a more nostalgia post but never mind.



6.1's work are already killing me!! HELP!!!!!!

灵感

我问燕子，

可否把我的心声带到那里。

燕子说：

“该说的，你就自己说；该做的，你就自己做”

叭嗒的，

燕子就飞走了。

~

我遥望着无边无界的蓝天

若我是只燕子，我现在可以理自壮壮的飞翔吗？

若我是只燕子，我可以抛弃所有，而飞向天空吗？

若我是只燕子，我会向那遥远的大地，勇敢的飞吗？

我想我不会

==

因为

无论燕子飞的多远，多高

最终还是会回到它温暖的家。

我放开我的视线，

看着天空，

终于

有灵感！

thank you

Thank you for giving me a wonderful time during the term holiday.
i enjoy every moment of it, especially when that someone is always bubbly and happy-go-lucky...

well, i have to admit that there are times when i threw tanturms at you or just being childish with you, for those times when i made you uncomfortable or feeling that you wanna "box" me, i wish to say i am sorry...

nevertheless, this holiday has been the greatest since i entered my uni...i really do hope that in the future, we can have a blast together!!haha

not to forget, you taught me how to wash my clothes manually again!!haha~

thank you,ah di!!

She is the Jewel of Tibet

on the bright side of the whole pc incident, was that i am once again addicted to songs! More accurately is the "Jewel of Tibet" musical, which songs i once played in the early morning of adv pagelayout and yuemun said it sounded like opera...lolz...

i was hooked onto this particular musical because of its historical figure, Princess Wen Cheng, and the fact that i watched the musical live last year.

it was only of recent that i purchased the cd along with books and so much more at the final act of "Prince Siddhartha" musical in Istana Budaya. i think i was in heaven, what with the sounds of Buddhist hymns and books!

BOOKS! i tell you are my favourites, especially those that, when i taken favor of, i will hook onto it like life and death, i even remember when i purposely saved up enough cash and headed back to that same bookshop after a year later to hunt for the book but returned, not empty handed but, buying another book as that previous one was sold out...sad times...

well, this musical is mesmerizing, it was really a eye opener for most who think that a local production can never be as of that standard. though admittedly the musics wasn't really catchy after the live performance but then i was reminded of this when i read a book that talks about China.

summing the entire affair up, i am now humming the songs of the musical and probably jiam will be scream soon if she hears the same old song playing in my 15 year old satria...lolz..

so till then ciaoz...

and YES! i am paranoid...

well creating its own record in my time of laptop and internet browsing, i was caught up with some computer junkies that turned out to be bugs, hiding within the lushy forest of my acer...god damn it! this bug was removed from its hidy with the software and praying hard it never will return to haunt my storage area that i relied on.

i am paranoid so i had to call someone and hogged on the house phone for 40 minutes and tell her my other dilemmas, which i believe might be an earsore for her.

"hey *insert cue name*, have you hear of this____*insert name of spyware/virus*, do you think it will remain here after i deleted it via anti spyware?"

ah, the rantings and scary moments...damn it..

i did not browse any X rated sites neither do i browse rubbish sites that i should not, i just logged on to friendster! and something like this turned up...gosh! i seem to be strucking the worst of pc lucks here...

pray that it will never appears again!!!

memories

a memory that is meant to happen

on a blissful day, two brothers went fishing by the river

for you, my brother.

ZOMG

well, nothing much happened lately. Life has been tough and toughier in RDI because as you progress higher up, the coursework get challenging and lecturers' demands is getting higher and higher...but aside from that, i am still quite happy with the daily life.

not to mention, the computer phobia hasnt actually subsided...which means that if there are any lagging while doing my work, i will freak out and go berserk! then slowly going back to my regular self. stress konon!

well, till then, stay tuned...lolz

ok...please spare me the lecture and all.
my absent from the internet,msn and mainly, my blog, during my holidays
is because i suddenly developed a FEAR of using computer.

maybe that's the side effect of using and staring too much at it last term.

anywayz, i try to get my stuff up ASAP, so for the time being please do bear with the
deadness of the blog...

到 。走

我到了天涯海角等你，
却遇不见你。




我到了。。。
可是你还没到。。。




凌晨的寂寞，
无人了解。

为我在草地上，
遥望着天空。

一个人，
空档的心。

满天的云，
冷落的我。



该走了。

好的。

歇

我无力了。。。


该放弃吗？
该放开吗？



走的话，就一了了之。
留下呢，就心痛。

该歇歇了，
心灵上的折磨难以抹去。

梦里，
压力统统出现。


恶魔，
毒蛇，
血腥的画面，
足让我作呕。


该休息了。。。
该到了。。。

Lost and Found

i was Lost.

In the midst of the Crowd,
i lose my directions.

You never left me.

i gave up Hopes and Wishes,
for they never came true.

You never left me but was by my side all the times.

i grew frustrated of Restrictions and Rules,
i became rebelious.

Yet, You are always there.

i, once, thought that You never exist.
You showed me Miracles.

i thought of letting go forever,
but You never let me go,
You held on to me still.

You sent Signs and Messengers.
Doing everything You can to pull me back.

Now,
i am home again.

You never cease to lose hope in me.
You stood by me always.
Showed me Signs and Messages.

i am home now.
i am, truly, home now.

Of Ang Pau and Blessings

I realised that nowadays, especially this year, what with the economic crisis and all the chaos around the World, everyone is tighting their own pockets, which means here that the amount of money that one can find in ang paus reduced.

Well, i heard complains and all from people that this year they did not receive much for Chinese New Year, though it is only the second day of the festival. Omigosh, that shows that people nowadays can be really money-minded and that's something that the society should be concern about. People are getting greedy, senseless over money. Or, is this the time when the phrase, "Money drives a man crazy" is to be used?

All these while, the amount of money in my red packets did not really matter as i always took all of these as a sign of blessing. This year i particularly feel that this is something that is right. Chinese New Year's eve, i received numerous wishings from all my friends and my teachers from high school. To me, though they are just SMSes but they are still wishes and blessings, especially from my high school teachers. All of these meant alot to me.

Then comes the Ang Paus. Every ang pau i get i take it as a blessing given by the Elders. Their blessings is what really counts not the money. If they gave me RM1 or RM0.50 in a red packet, i would gladly take it as it is a form of blessing. i know that in some parts of China, as i was told, the children received only 1 yuan for Chinese New Year,which is equalevant to our RM 1 for years and they are happy.

Here i felt that sometimes if the amount of money in the red packet is not to the children's liking, they will just chose to ignore that particular giver sometimes. People are getting really money-minded/obesses with money. A sign that the true value of Chinese New Year is no longer there. i always believe that no matter how One is modern, he/she must still go by the rules of their culture. This is something that i see many are relectant to do. For example, usually the first and second day is reserved for the family, but i see my cousins going in and out of the house, without giving a damn to this. Well, maybe their families have different practices but mine for sure, will never allow me to do that one the 1st to 3rd day, which is normally reserved for my Paternal and Maternal sides, not to mention, also my Godparents.

i should not be critising anyone but this year's Chinese New Year, for me, is abit lonely and the family warmth and togetherness weakens as everyone go their own separate ways in Life.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

May the Year of the Ox brings many good fortunes to all.

Keep smiling and remember that take everything that Life throws at you!!

High Hopes

i stayed up last night from 11pm-about 2 am in the morning to watch the highly anticipated Inauguration Ceremony of the 44th President of United States, Mr. Barack H. Obama!!!

i messaged Apurva to inform her that CNN is broadcasting LIVE from the Capitol, the place where the Inaugural Ceremony was held. Damn, there are so many people, CNN estimated about 20 million people is presented and there were more world wide watching the auspicious event.

There was billions watching.It was about 12pm that Obama and Bush leave the White House and headed for the Capitol. I will cut short and straight to the part where Obama arrived at the Capitol. The crowds were screaming and cheering for Obama to appear on the platform. It was exactly like in a Rock Concert.


'OBAMA! OBAMA! OBAMA!'


Finally he walked out, man, he was calm and steady. And, oh my goodness, you should have heard his Inaugural Speech. It was full of Power and Certainty. The Speech was strong and when CNN zoomed in to the crowd, you can see that everyone there is paying Obama, their fullest attention. Change! He emphasised on Change. And the Inaugural ceremony was a Change itself.


Obama is the first African-American to be elected as a President.He's taking drastic actions to face the economy crisis and the Middle East affair. He used the Bible that Abraham Lincoln used when he was took his oath to be the president. Owh ya, he was also official the President by noon even before he took the oath, as stated by the Constitution.

One more fact, throughout his speech, he never read or have a script on the platform, the way he delivered his speech was from his Heart. He need not use a script for that. i salute to you, Pres. Obama

Michelle Obama's dress was gorgeous that day. Nothing too striking but it complimented her. And it was a really humble dress but it was really obvious and stood out among the masses of black.

All in all, the Inaugural ceremony was a success ending with the Obamas sending off the Bushs.

I wish Pres. Obama greatest of luck and hope that the changes he intended on can be made without further delays and can be fulfilled.

GOOD LUCK MR. BARACK OBAMA

20 Jan 09



Yee Siew Fai

Happy Birthday man! wow, you are already 19. Here's a friend that i met in form 1 but really get to know him in form 4 n 5, an awesome dude with big plans for the future.

Long due Gathering...

Well, just like what the title meant...an long over due gathering happened last nite, 11 Jan 09

After 7 years...

i finally manage to meet most of my tuition mates and my standard 5 & 6 BM tuition teacher, CGU Tan!!!

i was really excited about the gathering when Ning Jui sms-ed me because i typically lost contact with all of the gang for 7 years. What makes them still remember me?haha...

After a few smses, the venue was confirmed to be in Old Taste, Puchong @ 6pm.

Lets cut short and fast forward to last nite...

=Gathering @ OLD TASTE, Puchong=

i was supposed to pick Ning Jui @ 6pm sharp but i had to feed my doggie, so it delayed abit, and i was in a mess when i rushed out of the hse. Her hse was less than a minute from my place, and she was waiting outside already, paiseh ar...We drove our way out onto the highway that lead to the Other side of Puchong.

There i went on to fetch Jun Suet @ Jln Kenari. i thought maybe she be following Boon Lay, it was then i heard from Ning Jui that Boon Lay moved to Puchong Utama and, it was also then i only know that, CGU Tan moved to Bandar Bukit Puchong. Wow, all so freaking far already...

The journey to Old Taste was less than 5 minute and was kinda quiet, minus the directions given by Ning Jui and Jun Suet. Well, 7 years of separation, the topic is kinda sacred for me. The Others were in the same class in Stan. 5 & 6, and Most were in the same school, that's why they still see each other often.

We parked in front of Old Taste and surprisingly we saw CGU Tan, Wei Jie and Boon Lay sitting there waiting. The first reaction from CGU Tan was, " Dragon, wah..you so tall already." haha...She is still the same cheerful self.

How i miss the times when i am having tuition with all of Them, it was fun and learning. They were all from the same class, 6H, and i was the odd one out, 6J, but they treated me the same. An equal, which i don't get that much in CHS sometimes.

We ordered drinks and our dinners. Chatted for 2 hours about our life, school and other misc.

From there i get to know that CGU Tan is undergoing part time course in OUM aside from her teaching in Yak Chee, Boon Lay is a JPA Scholar and is currently in KTT studying Dentistry and will be leaving for India next year end, Jun Suet is taking A-Levels in Sunway, Wei Jie in TARC accounting and Ning Jui in Mass Communication in INTI.

CGU Tan still teases us like the old days. She asked about our SPMs and what stream we were in. She was also asking about how can she memorize a whole chunk of infos, i remember how we used to ask her that question, haha. She was also asking around about how is our high school, as her daughter will be entering Form 1 soon.

Throughout the whole conversation, most of the time i was quiet, so is Ning Jui. i was silent because i wanted to hear about how the Others are going on, i have some serious catching up to do with all of Them. Life changed after Yak Chee for all of Us.

We chatted till 8.55pm or so, then CGU Tan had to leave because she had an appointment with someone back home. But we stayed back as Boon Lay was waiting for his parents to pick him up. It was 9.30 or so when his parents arrived and, then, we left Old Taste.

Each left Old Taste behind and headed home. I drove Ning Jui and Jun Suet back, the journey home was short but it was not quiet. It was full of chit chattings.

i reached home around 9.40 pm or so.

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i, personally, felt that the Gathering was a blast, though we just talked and talked. i was amazed at how They changed, they all looked matured and all grown up.

Old Taste, was the most ideal place to hold this Gathering. one, the food was way cheaper than Old Town's and, not to mention, bigger servings.

It was also, Old Taste meant that it brings us back to the good Old days when we are in tuition class. Where CGU Tan coaches Us for UPSR and how we laughed quirky jokes, haha...i will never forget the good Old days.

Old Taste also meant that We get together to rekindle Our friendship, which we did!
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Thanks for the good memories and the good times in Yak Chee, CGU Tan tuition and, the most recent, at Old Taste...

Hope to see all of you in the next Gathering...^^

So totally in LOVE!!

Well, i m soo totally in love with HIS songs!!!


Declan Galbraith,
he is born in 91, that means he is now 18 this year..
cutting the crap, his songs really touches my heart
and it has a really magnetic sense that will draws you to it.

This happened to me.
At first i thought it was no big, but then after listening to various songs of his...

O GOD!!

it's like magnets... well, i spare you the crap now and show you...

Nights in White Satin...



i am in love......aww......haha...

Oh, not to forget the song that started the new era of fandom...

Tell me why



Thats back when he was still a young boy...


The latest HIM

Ego You

=============================================

Let me know what you think of him...

Bday Wishes'09

Alright, my first post for the New Year would be to wish my friends, Happy Birthday!

January 1

Januar

A Talented Photographer, takes killer shots with stunning photos..^^
Sorry for the Belated Happy Birthday!!!


Today


Judy Choi

Daring, Sexy and Cute all in one package, whats more can you ask for??
Girl, you are a year older now!!
Go Bunnies...haha


January 2


Urooj Imrooz

Humble, lovely, charms people in her own way.
One in a Million gal!!