Nov 28, 2008

i believe everyone around has heard of the Tragedy that happened in Mumbai, India in the news or by mouth. It's really sad and sickening to see or hear such a thing happening.

i am deeply shaken and sick over this massacre.

Though i have no power over it but i really wanted to express how i felt over this Tragedy.

Therefore, i am changing my blogskin to black and my profile photos in my all of my accounts to Candles to mourn this dreadful Tragedy.

My deepest sympathy to those who lost family members or loved ones in the Tragedy.

Nov 24, 2008

emo emo emo emo emo...
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today i felt weird.
as if i might lose one of my buddies.

i am worried.

please don't make me go through another drama again..

Please...




PS: i just cried. maybe because it was of the song i am listening..

Nov 20, 2008

First the Car then now the Laptop are both acting up...

It was first my car, the 10 year old or more, Satria.

She, well i would refer the car as a She because Satria reminds me of a girl, sorta played a 'prank' on me by suddenly goin' dead while i was just about to reach my sister's tuition center. It just went off without any warning and the moment She stopped, out came a buzzing noise from the radio compartment.

I told my mum about it and She was sent to the foreman for servicing for 2 days. When she returned home, She look fantastic! The foreman informed my uncle that the Satria has, no apparent, problems and was working just fine.

However, it was a week later that She started acting up again. It was rainning and the daily traffic jam that occupied the road to the SMART tunnel was very BAD! i was driving happily or rather grumpily home when the first strike came by. She went dead in the middle of the road after i braked. i restarted the car ASAP and went off the road again. Then the second strike came. She died in the middle of the road again and this time a car almost hit me in the back. i switched the emergency light on and i restarted the car again. Then it was all smooth till after the SMART tunnel's toll. Just when i was about to exit the toll and headed out onto the road, She died AGAIN! This time at the divider of the road. It was scary as cars behind me were honking and i am taking up the whole road. i restarted it AGAIN and then i speed all the way and out onto the roads of Old Klang Road. While waiting for the traffic light to turn green, She striked AGAIN! i panicked and was shaking as the cars behind me honked louder. i restart and drove as fast as i could to reach the exit to the Highway that will cut into Puchong. Then She striked AGAIN! This time luck was by my side as She died while i just arrived at the traffic light. After that i dare not stop and just sped my way home. Upon reaching my front gate, i sighed and took everything out of the car and headed inside the house. i told my dad about Her and She was once again sent to the foreman.



My lappie/laptop, Acer. Let's call it a Him alright?

He's barely a year old and just today when i was all hot and wanted to surf the net, He just won't connect for me! It's weird as he never behaves like that so i called up my two computer expert cousins and told them my problem. They told me to repair the internet connection, there is a button there by your connection icon or restart my laptop. However, after both of these were done, He still would not stay connect for me for long. It flickered and blinked. It can detect the network but just cannot seem to stay connect to it. i was worked up as i need to get some infos for my class tomorrow so i had no choice but to use the cable to connect my lappie to the internet.

After having my dinner, He connected to the internet. Wireless-ly. Then he disconnect and connect again. But for the time being, he is well-behaved.

Nov 12, 2008

小丑

我是小丑

我娱乐各位可是我是悲伤的

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戴上面具,
画上彩妆,
换上服装。

成了另一个人。

微笑的面孔,
广阔的心胸。
为你带来欢笑,
再多悲伤也不放在脸。

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伤痛的人,
被逗得笑了。

忧愁的人,
解开了内心。

失落的人,
找回了信心。

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唯有我暗地里留着眼泪,所有的痛往心里埋。

12112008

been kinda emo lately.
though most of you might not know that, but i try to keep it confined to only my bedroom.
i do not feel that it is fair for me to unleash all my sadness onto my friends.

it's been a really hectic period in college.
assignments after assignments were given almost instantly after the previous one is done.


it's kinda good as this immune-d my.
it's been a real comfort that i still have my pals around me.
it's been really nice that i can still laugh and talk like i used to.


o ya, i owe all of you out there a few posts to date. The Genting Outing,the Gang Overnight,My Bday and also a most recent event, Raffles' Halloween party.

Cry

Finally
I cried

After holding back so many days, it finally came pouring out.

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Vulnerable.
Sadness engulfed me.


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The only medicine to this was that I kept on working.


Moving.
Walking.
Thinking.


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Wait!

Thinking?!

It only makes me think of You so much more.


Nothing penetrates my brain now.

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It hurts me.
It breaks me.
It destroys me.


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Empty.


A hollow shell.
Working but not concentrating.


A blank pair of eyes.
Staring but not recording.

A broken heart.
Beating but not feeling.


我终于哭了。。。

忍住那么多天的眼泪终于留下了。

悲伤
痛苦
失望


统统发泄了。。。


我未尝为了爱而流泪

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多么的好,
多么的美。


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那么的深,
那么的痛。


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没了。
绝望了。