This song has been playing in my head for a long, really long, time. Since 2002, when I'm not Stupid is premiered on the shores of Malaysia.
To cut things short, this movie is, basically, talking about how Singaporean kids struggle to meet their parents' expectation, be it obedience or studies. This is also the first film where Shawn Lee and Joshua Ang were discovered to be future artistes. Well, let's get back to the song.
This song was sung by 許美嫻.
Titled, 內疚.
It is actually a really short song that was played when Guo Ping's mum, Mrs Liu, played by Xiang Yun, was admitted to the hospital due to blood cancer and Guo Ping, played by Shawn Lee, brought back his year end results to her side. Throughout the movie, you will be able to see how Guo Ping struggled to achieve the results that his mother wanted him to, so when it comes to this scene, it was a touching one as eventhough Guo Ping did not manage to get the results his mother wanted him to, Mrs Liu finally accepted the fact that her son had, indeed, tried his very best and still cannot achieve the marks she desired for.
A really touching scene on the understanding between a Mother and her Son.
The lyrics were made even more meaningful to this beautiful scene.
不斷的摸索自己 企圖改變一些歎息
我知道你對我的期許 是將來眼光的抵禦
你今日無助的詞句 都帶著明日的訊息
我知道你對我的心意 而我就是有心無力
我還有什麼可以給你,我不斷的問自己。
我不斷的想,不斷的在找尋。。。。。。
我知道你一直都辛苦 為我默默地付出
就算流淚也不承認你哭 我是身在福中不知福
所以我用盡我的全部 來告訴你我沒有認輸
還有什麼可以給你 我的爹娘我的父母
還有什麼可以給你 我的爹娘我的父母
In short, what the lyric sung about was the struggling of a child on trying to achieve what his/her mother wanted him/her to get, however, no matter how hard he/she tried he/she still can't get it, even though he/she understands what his/her parents go through and hoped for but still he/she can't achieve that goal as he/she really did tried his/her very best and it is still an average mark.
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This song never fails to bring tears to my eyes, irregardless how many times i have heard it.
It just touched my heart in many aspects and i wish that it will touch your hearts as well. :)
Enjoy~