我无力了。。。
该放弃吗？
该放开吗？
走的话，就一了了之。
留下呢，就心痛。
该歇歇了，
心灵上的折磨难以抹去。
梦里，
压力统统出现。
恶魔，
毒蛇，
血腥的画面，
足让我作呕。
该休息了。。。
该到了。。。
Jan 28, 2009
Jan 27, 2009
Lost and Found
i was Lost.
In the midst of the Crowd,
i lose my directions.
You never left me.
i gave up Hopes and Wishes,
for they never came true.
You never left me but was by my side all the times.
i grew frustrated of Restrictions and Rules,
i became rebelious.
Yet, You are always there.
i, once, thought that You never exist.
You showed me Miracles.
i thought of letting go forever,
but You never let me go,
You held on to me still.
You sent Signs and Messengers.
Doing everything You can to pull me back.
Now,
i am home again.
You never cease to lose hope in me.
You stood by me always.
Showed me Signs and Messages.
i am home now.
i am, truly, home now.
In the midst of the Crowd,
i lose my directions.
You never left me.
i gave up Hopes and Wishes,
for they never came true.
You never left me but was by my side all the times.
i grew frustrated of Restrictions and Rules,
i became rebelious.
Yet, You are always there.
i, once, thought that You never exist.
You showed me Miracles.
i thought of letting go forever,
but You never let me go,
You held on to me still.
You sent Signs and Messengers.
Doing everything You can to pull me back.
Now,
i am home again.
You never cease to lose hope in me.
You stood by me always.
Showed me Signs and Messages.
i am home now.
i am, truly, home now.
Of Ang Pau and Blessings
I realised that nowadays, especially this year, what with the economic crisis and all the chaos around the World, everyone is tighting their own pockets, which means here that the amount of money that one can find in ang paus reduced.
Well, i heard complains and all from people that this year they did not receive much for Chinese New Year, though it is only the second day of the festival. Omigosh, that shows that people nowadays can be really money-minded and that's something that the society should be concern about. People are getting greedy, senseless over money. Or, is this the time when the phrase, "Money drives a man crazy" is to be used?
All these while, the amount of money in my red packets did not really matter as i always took all of these as a sign of blessing. This year i particularly feel that this is something that is right. Chinese New Year's eve, i received numerous wishings from all my friends and my teachers from high school. To me, though they are just SMSes but they are still wishes and blessings, especially from my high school teachers. All of these meant alot to me.
Then comes the Ang Paus. Every ang pau i get i take it as a blessing given by the Elders. Their blessings is what really counts not the money. If they gave me RM1 or RM0.50 in a red packet, i would gladly take it as it is a form of blessing. i know that in some parts of China, as i was told, the children received only 1 yuan for Chinese New Year,which is equalevant to our RM 1 for years and they are happy.
Here i felt that sometimes if the amount of money in the red packet is not to the children's liking, they will just chose to ignore that particular giver sometimes. People are getting really money-minded/obesses with money. A sign that the true value of Chinese New Year is no longer there. i always believe that no matter how One is modern, he/she must still go by the rules of their culture. This is something that i see many are relectant to do. For example, usually the first and second day is reserved for the family, but i see my cousins going in and out of the house, without giving a damn to this. Well, maybe their families have different practices but mine for sure, will never allow me to do that one the 1st to 3rd day, which is normally reserved for my Paternal and Maternal sides, not to mention, also my Godparents.
i should not be critising anyone but this year's Chinese New Year, for me, is abit lonely and the family warmth and togetherness weakens as everyone go their own separate ways in Life.
Well, i heard complains and all from people that this year they did not receive much for Chinese New Year, though it is only the second day of the festival. Omigosh, that shows that people nowadays can be really money-minded and that's something that the society should be concern about. People are getting greedy, senseless over money. Or, is this the time when the phrase, "Money drives a man crazy" is to be used?
All these while, the amount of money in my red packets did not really matter as i always took all of these as a sign of blessing. This year i particularly feel that this is something that is right. Chinese New Year's eve, i received numerous wishings from all my friends and my teachers from high school. To me, though they are just SMSes but they are still wishes and blessings, especially from my high school teachers. All of these meant alot to me.
Then comes the Ang Paus. Every ang pau i get i take it as a blessing given by the Elders. Their blessings is what really counts not the money. If they gave me RM1 or RM0.50 in a red packet, i would gladly take it as it is a form of blessing. i know that in some parts of China, as i was told, the children received only 1 yuan for Chinese New Year,which is equalevant to our RM 1 for years and they are happy.
Here i felt that sometimes if the amount of money in the red packet is not to the children's liking, they will just chose to ignore that particular giver sometimes. People are getting really money-minded/obesses with money. A sign that the true value of Chinese New Year is no longer there. i always believe that no matter how One is modern, he/she must still go by the rules of their culture. This is something that i see many are relectant to do. For example, usually the first and second day is reserved for the family, but i see my cousins going in and out of the house, without giving a damn to this. Well, maybe their families have different practices but mine for sure, will never allow me to do that one the 1st to 3rd day, which is normally reserved for my Paternal and Maternal sides, not to mention, also my Godparents.
i should not be critising anyone but this year's Chinese New Year, for me, is abit lonely and the family warmth and togetherness weakens as everyone go their own separate ways in Life.
Jan 26, 2009
Jan 21, 2009
High Hopes
i stayed up last night from 11pm-about 2 am in the morning to watch the highly anticipated Inauguration Ceremony of the 44th President of United States, Mr. Barack H. Obama!!!
i messaged Apurva to inform her that CNN is broadcasting LIVE from the Capitol, the place where the Inaugural Ceremony was held. Damn, there are so many people, CNN estimated about 20 million people is presented and there were more world wide watching the auspicious event.
There was billions watching.It was about 12pm that Obama and Bush leave the White House and headed for the Capitol. I will cut short and straight to the part where Obama arrived at the Capitol. The crowds were screaming and cheering for Obama to appear on the platform. It was exactly like in a Rock Concert.
'OBAMA! OBAMA! OBAMA!'
Finally he walked out, man, he was calm and steady. And, oh my goodness, you should have heard his Inaugural Speech. It was full of Power and Certainty. The Speech was strong and when CNN zoomed in to the crowd, you can see that everyone there is paying Obama, their fullest attention. Change! He emphasised on Change. And the Inaugural ceremony was a Change itself.
Obama is the first African-American to be elected as a President.He's taking drastic actions to face the economy crisis and the Middle East affair. He used the Bible that Abraham Lincoln used when he was took his oath to be the president. Owh ya, he was also official the President by noon even before he took the oath, as stated by the Constitution.
One more fact, throughout his speech, he never read or have a script on the platform, the way he delivered his speech was from his Heart. He need not use a script for that. i salute to you, Pres. Obama
Michelle Obama's dress was gorgeous that day. Nothing too striking but it complimented her. And it was a really humble dress but it was really obvious and stood out among the masses of black.
i messaged Apurva to inform her that CNN is broadcasting LIVE from the Capitol, the place where the Inaugural Ceremony was held. Damn, there are so many people, CNN estimated about 20 million people is presented and there were more world wide watching the auspicious event.
There was billions watching.It was about 12pm that Obama and Bush leave the White House and headed for the Capitol. I will cut short and straight to the part where Obama arrived at the Capitol. The crowds were screaming and cheering for Obama to appear on the platform. It was exactly like in a Rock Concert.
'OBAMA! OBAMA! OBAMA!'
Finally he walked out, man, he was calm and steady. And, oh my goodness, you should have heard his Inaugural Speech. It was full of Power and Certainty. The Speech was strong and when CNN zoomed in to the crowd, you can see that everyone there is paying Obama, their fullest attention. Change! He emphasised on Change. And the Inaugural ceremony was a Change itself.
Obama is the first African-American to be elected as a President.He's taking drastic actions to face the economy crisis and the Middle East affair. He used the Bible that Abraham Lincoln used when he was took his oath to be the president. Owh ya, he was also official the President by noon even before he took the oath, as stated by the Constitution.
One more fact, throughout his speech, he never read or have a script on the platform, the way he delivered his speech was from his Heart. He need not use a script for that. i salute to you, Pres. Obama
Michelle Obama's dress was gorgeous that day. Nothing too striking but it complimented her. And it was a really humble dress but it was really obvious and stood out among the masses of black.
All in all, the Inaugural ceremony was a success ending with the Obamas sending off the Bushs.
I wish Pres. Obama greatest of luck and hope that the changes he intended on can be made without further delays and can be fulfilled.
GOOD LUCK MR. BARACK OBAMA
Jan 20, 2009
Jan 12, 2009
Long due Gathering...
Well, just like what the title meant...an long over due gathering happened last nite, 11 Jan 09
After 7 years...
i finally manage to meet most of my tuition mates and my standard 5 & 6 BM tuition teacher, CGU Tan!!!
i was really excited about the gathering when Ning Jui sms-ed me because i typically lost contact with all of the gang for 7 years. What makes them still remember me?haha...
After a few smses, the venue was confirmed to be in Old Taste, Puchong @ 6pm.
Lets cut short and fast forward to last nite...
i was supposed to pick Ning Jui @ 6pm sharp but i had to feed my doggie, so it delayed abit, and i was in a mess when i rushed out of the hse. Her hse was less than a minute from my place, and she was waiting outside already, paiseh ar...We drove our way out onto the highway that lead to the Other side of Puchong.
There i went on to fetch Jun Suet @ Jln Kenari. i thought maybe she be following Boon Lay, it was then i heard from Ning Jui that Boon Lay moved to Puchong Utama and, it was also then i only know that, CGU Tan moved to Bandar Bukit Puchong. Wow, all so freaking far already...
The journey to Old Taste was less than 5 minute and was kinda quiet, minus the directions given by Ning Jui and Jun Suet. Well, 7 years of separation, the topic is kinda sacred for me. The Others were in the same class in Stan. 5 & 6, and Most were in the same school, that's why they still see each other often.
We parked in front of Old Taste and surprisingly we saw CGU Tan, Wei Jie and Boon Lay sitting there waiting. The first reaction from CGU Tan was, " Dragon, wah..you so tall already." haha...She is still the same cheerful self.
How i miss the times when i am having tuition with all of Them, it was fun and learning. They were all from the same class, 6H, and i was the odd one out, 6J, but they treated me the same. An equal, which i don't get that much in CHS sometimes.
We ordered drinks and our dinners. Chatted for 2 hours about our life, school and other misc.
From there i get to know that CGU Tan is undergoing part time course in OUM aside from her teaching in Yak Chee, Boon Lay is a JPA Scholar and is currently in KTT studying Dentistry and will be leaving for India next year end, Jun Suet is taking A-Levels in Sunway, Wei Jie in TARC accounting and Ning Jui in Mass Communication in INTI.
CGU Tan still teases us like the old days. She asked about our SPMs and what stream we were in. She was also asking about how can she memorize a whole chunk of infos, i remember how we used to ask her that question, haha. She was also asking around about how is our high school, as her daughter will be entering Form 1 soon.
Throughout the whole conversation, most of the time i was quiet, so is Ning Jui. i was silent because i wanted to hear about how the Others are going on, i have some serious catching up to do with all of Them. Life changed after Yak Chee for all of Us.
We chatted till 8.55pm or so, then CGU Tan had to leave because she had an appointment with someone back home. But we stayed back as Boon Lay was waiting for his parents to pick him up. It was 9.30 or so when his parents arrived and, then, we left Old Taste.
Each left Old Taste behind and headed home. I drove Ning Jui and Jun Suet back, the journey home was short but it was not quiet. It was full of chit chattings.
i reached home around 9.40 pm or so.
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i, personally, felt that the Gathering was a blast, though we just talked and talked. i was amazed at how They changed, they all looked matured and all grown up.
Old Taste, was the most ideal place to hold this Gathering. one, the food was way cheaper than Old Town's and, not to mention, bigger servings.
It was also, Old Taste meant that it brings us back to the good Old days when we are in tuition class. Where CGU Tan coaches Us for UPSR and how we laughed quirky jokes, haha...i will never forget the good Old days.
Old Taste also meant that We get together to rekindle Our friendship, which we did!
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Thanks for the good memories and the good times in Yak Chee, CGU Tan tuition and, the most recent, at Old Taste...
Hope to see all of you in the next Gathering...^^
After 7 years...
i finally manage to meet most of my tuition mates and my standard 5 & 6 BM tuition teacher, CGU Tan!!!
i was really excited about the gathering when Ning Jui sms-ed me because i typically lost contact with all of the gang for 7 years. What makes them still remember me?haha...
After a few smses, the venue was confirmed to be in Old Taste, Puchong @ 6pm.
Lets cut short and fast forward to last nite...
=Gathering @ OLD TASTE, Puchong=
i was supposed to pick Ning Jui @ 6pm sharp but i had to feed my doggie, so it delayed abit, and i was in a mess when i rushed out of the hse. Her hse was less than a minute from my place, and she was waiting outside already, paiseh ar...We drove our way out onto the highway that lead to the Other side of Puchong.
There i went on to fetch Jun Suet @ Jln Kenari. i thought maybe she be following Boon Lay, it was then i heard from Ning Jui that Boon Lay moved to Puchong Utama and, it was also then i only know that, CGU Tan moved to Bandar Bukit Puchong. Wow, all so freaking far already...
The journey to Old Taste was less than 5 minute and was kinda quiet, minus the directions given by Ning Jui and Jun Suet. Well, 7 years of separation, the topic is kinda sacred for me. The Others were in the same class in Stan. 5 & 6, and Most were in the same school, that's why they still see each other often.
We parked in front of Old Taste and surprisingly we saw CGU Tan, Wei Jie and Boon Lay sitting there waiting. The first reaction from CGU Tan was, " Dragon, wah..you so tall already." haha...She is still the same cheerful self.
How i miss the times when i am having tuition with all of Them, it was fun and learning. They were all from the same class, 6H, and i was the odd one out, 6J, but they treated me the same. An equal, which i don't get that much in CHS sometimes.
We ordered drinks and our dinners. Chatted for 2 hours about our life, school and other misc.
From there i get to know that CGU Tan is undergoing part time course in OUM aside from her teaching in Yak Chee, Boon Lay is a JPA Scholar and is currently in KTT studying Dentistry and will be leaving for India next year end, Jun Suet is taking A-Levels in Sunway, Wei Jie in TARC accounting and Ning Jui in Mass Communication in INTI.
CGU Tan still teases us like the old days. She asked about our SPMs and what stream we were in. She was also asking about how can she memorize a whole chunk of infos, i remember how we used to ask her that question, haha. She was also asking around about how is our high school, as her daughter will be entering Form 1 soon.
Throughout the whole conversation, most of the time i was quiet, so is Ning Jui. i was silent because i wanted to hear about how the Others are going on, i have some serious catching up to do with all of Them. Life changed after Yak Chee for all of Us.
We chatted till 8.55pm or so, then CGU Tan had to leave because she had an appointment with someone back home. But we stayed back as Boon Lay was waiting for his parents to pick him up. It was 9.30 or so when his parents arrived and, then, we left Old Taste.
Each left Old Taste behind and headed home. I drove Ning Jui and Jun Suet back, the journey home was short but it was not quiet. It was full of chit chattings.
i reached home around 9.40 pm or so.
=============================================
i, personally, felt that the Gathering was a blast, though we just talked and talked. i was amazed at how They changed, they all looked matured and all grown up.
Old Taste, was the most ideal place to hold this Gathering. one, the food was way cheaper than Old Town's and, not to mention, bigger servings.
It was also, Old Taste meant that it brings us back to the good Old days when we are in tuition class. Where CGU Tan coaches Us for UPSR and how we laughed quirky jokes, haha...i will never forget the good Old days.
Old Taste also meant that We get together to rekindle Our friendship, which we did!
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Thanks for the good memories and the good times in Yak Chee, CGU Tan tuition and, the most recent, at Old Taste...
Hope to see all of you in the next Gathering...^^
Jan 11, 2009
So totally in LOVE!!
Well, i m soo totally in love with HIS songs!!!
Declan Galbraith,
he is born in 91, that means he is now 18 this year..
cutting the crap, his songs really touches my heart
and it has a really magnetic sense that will draws you to it.
This happened to me.
At first i thought it was no big, but then after listening to various songs of his...
O GOD!!
it's like magnets... well, i spare you the crap now and show you...
Nights in White Satin...
i am in love......aww......haha...
Oh, not to forget the song that started the new era of fandom...
Tell me why
Thats back when he was still a young boy...
The latest HIM
Ego You
=============================================
Let me know what you think of him...
Declan Galbraith,
he is born in 91, that means he is now 18 this year..
cutting the crap, his songs really touches my heart
and it has a really magnetic sense that will draws you to it.
This happened to me.
At first i thought it was no big, but then after listening to various songs of his...
O GOD!!
it's like magnets... well, i spare you the crap now and show you...
Nights in White Satin...
i am in love......aww......haha...
Oh, not to forget the song that started the new era of fandom...
Tell me why
Thats back when he was still a young boy...
The latest HIM
Ego You
=============================================
Let me know what you think of him...
Jan 6, 2009
Bday Wishes'09
Alright, my first post for the New Year would be to wish my friends, Happy Birthday!
January 1
Januar
A Talented Photographer, takes killer shots with stunning photos..^^
Sorry for the Belated Happy Birthday!!!
Today
Judy Choi
Daring, Sexy and Cute all in one package, whats more can you ask for??
Girl, you are a year older now!!
Go Bunnies...haha
January 2
Urooj Imrooz
Humble, lovely, charms people in her own way.
One in a Million gal!!
January 1
Januar
A Talented Photographer, takes killer shots with stunning photos..^^
Sorry for the Belated Happy Birthday!!!
Today
Judy Choi
Daring, Sexy and Cute all in one package, whats more can you ask for??
Girl, you are a year older now!!
Go Bunnies...haha
January 2
Urooj Imrooz
Humble, lovely, charms people in her own way.
One in a Million gal!!
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