Well, it's high time i blog in english rather than in chinese *insert cue for Jiam's "It's about TIME!"*, much has changed since the day the start of term till now, 1 month has already gone and i am still counting the days to my holiday, lolz, who doesn't want a vacation.
This term is one of those terms in Raffles that is really stress and demotivating. Not one but a few of us 6.1s are screaming the workload eventhough it's only a month into the term. Not to mention that we are seniors already! The batch 6.1 seems so high up in the Raffles hierachy. We strived hard for 5 terms already and this term seems abit demotivating, not sure why but most of us really do feel so.
Last term's holiday was a blast, thats all i can tell you. I had an early break as my assignments were done way way early and i managed for ONCE in my entire time in Raffles to have a stress/assignment free two weeks break! I took on a small project during the holidays and the deathline is due next week and my layouts are not even done yet! gosh!! but aside from that, i really do have a wonderful time working on this mini-project and having a freaking good time during my holidays.
Then comes the start of term 6.1, well, maybe it's because of the first week's blues, my 1st assignments are all a FLUNK! yes you heard me! FLUNK! omigosh, it's really depressing because i definately know i can do so much better. Especially the look on F's face during my presentation, it was agonizing, i don't know about my classmates but i can definately sense the dissapointment in her look when she saw my final work. However, i gave my word to her that i will definately do a better job for my finals and this time i mean it!
On the other hand, my lifestyle is changing nowadays. I am trying to be more 'independant' ,so to say, because i wanted a more hands on life. It's kinda tough to do so when you are stuck at home, but nevertheless i am now in charged of my own things: laundry, etc., which i am really enjoying it very much!
One thing different about this term is that, i can really sense the caring feeling amongst us 6.1s, maybe not all but a few. Week one back in Raffles was suddenly a hard time for me because the subjects were, well TOUGH! It was then you really see true friends. They are friends that are willing to spend time to listen to your woes and pains, they are friends that is always willing to give a helping hand in your assignment when they see you struggling with it.
These few days, my parents have been really on about the topic of me going abroad to studies, i don't know what made them all enthu about this but i somehow don't find it comfortable. I have barely finish my Adv. Diploma here in KL and they are already telling me about life abroad. Well, we've been through this conversation back when i was in 3.1 and i just don't know why i am taking this topic offensively, maybe it's because i am facing my own assignment crisis here and there they are talking about life overseas. But one thing's for sure, i am standing firm on my decision that i will decide to stay or not to stay when the time is right!
It now dawns to me that my future is really depending on my current decisions now and i hope that i have made the right decisions in prior time so that i will never regret it at the end of time.
I am rekindling the flame that gone out in me. I am striving for a better performance. I will be the one deciding my own fate and future~
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