Rants and What's not

Well, here i am blogging about something at 427pm in the office. Just to show the world that my brain is currently, literally, dead and my stomach is having a mind of its own in a bad way. Toilet breaks anyone??

Not to mention, i have once again fall in love with a particular movie that actually made me tear up everytime i watched it. To date, its 5 times and still counting. This movie is none other than [The Love of Siam]. It's actually a movie about how two boy, who were childhood friends that got separated and then reunited while they are about the age of 16. They fell in love with one another but due to peer pressure and all, one party decided to be frank with the other.

However, this is not why this movie is highly anticipated in many countries that were showed. It is because this movie touches on many aspect of relationships. For example, the love segment, the family segment, the friendship segment and many more. This movie is like a rojak of all these relationships.

As i was telling a close friend the other day, i realised how similar my current situation is to Mew, one of the boys in the show. i won't go further as i don't want to review too much but i really do understand what Mew might felt and it was really not a good feeling to begin with. It's tough but i believed in the end he will get through it, hopefully i will do too.

Gosh, so much ranting..

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[放弃了这一个，等待着下一个]

这句话说得好，但是还需要我等待多久？

为什么？

有时我真得很累了，好像好好的休息，有时还想过就那样结束所有。

说得容易，做是很难的。

一个个都是好像在玩似的，为什么我把我的感情放下去呢？

是不是我太天真？

是不是我太傻了？

是不是我不值得去寻找？

到底是为什么呢？！

累了，我真得很累了。

放过我吧。

[Once you given up, why not wait for the Next One to appear?]

this verse has been said over and over, well, undoubtedly it's a good one, but how long more should i be waiting?

why?

i felt i have been asking why so many times that i lost count of it.

why did i put my true feelings in when it seems like each and everyone of them are like playing me out?

why so?

could it be that i am too naive?

could it be that i am stupid?

could it be that i am not worthy of seeking that special One?

WHY?

i am really tired already, please just let go of me.