update in mere minutes.

well, i thought to make up with the absence of myself from the blog line, i would update twice! and so i was damned to keep pressing the HELP button, so sue me for being and idiot with clumsy fingers.

I lost count of the time when i call myself a joker, idiot, a dum-dum, a brat and other craps, but i believe that i have matured over time and everytime when i call myself either of those, i am degrading myself in some way or another. No idea why am i doing that to myself but sometimes i feel that one should be more humble at times and not be a super large Vogue with you as the beautiful model on the cover page and acting cute or vain or whatever suits you.

Life as i recalled has never been better. There are times when i wished that a lightning can just struck me and let me die on the spot when i was sitting by the verandah of my house, or the huge tree might just snapped and a huge branch will whacked me in the head and i am being hospitalised for the rest of my life, well, i am grateful that none of those ever happened but somehow i always felt that if one of those unpleasant things do happen to me, the most i can do is sit and stone for the rest of my ill-fated life.

For i am a buddhist, therefore i do not believe in the concept of an Almighty deep within the sheets of cloud, but sometimes i would like to believe that miracles in many forms do appear. Remembering an experience that came close to embrace the divine would be the time when i was in National Service. Cut things short, the incident was about my prayer book not being drenched wet at all dispite being submerged in the water for a period of time, don't ask me but that is just amazing!

So many things have occured in the past few months before i even updated this place. Many will whine over the countless status updates from me that they received over a course of 2 minutes or an hour, note Ken! I think i should really get a twitter but somehow, twitter is so not my cup of tea, unless someone like Apurva suddenly took charge of my life and snap me out of my trance of the countless updates that spell emo emo emo. Well, come to think of it, it would be fun to have your life paved out in front of you for once and not worry about anything but just stay alive to complete the course of life.

Funny, how things are~