Well, here i am blogging about something at 427pm in the office. Just to show the world that my brain is currently, literally, dead and my stomach is having a mind of its own in a bad way. Toilet breaks anyone??
Not to mention, i have once again fall in love with a particular movie that actually made me tear up everytime i watched it. To date, its 5 times and still counting. This movie is none other than [The Love of Siam]. It's actually a movie about how two boy, who were childhood friends that got separated and then reunited while they are about the age of 16. They fell in love with one another but due to peer pressure and all, one party decided to be frank with the other.
However, this is not why this movie is highly anticipated in many countries that were showed. It is because this movie touches on many aspect of relationships. For example, the love segment, the family segment, the friendship segment and many more. This movie is like a rojak of all these relationships.
As i was telling a close friend the other day, i realised how similar my current situation is to Mew, one of the boys in the show. i won't go further as i don't want to review too much but i really do understand what Mew might felt and it was really not a good feeling to begin with. It's tough but i believed in the end he will get through it, hopefully i will do too.
Gosh, so much ranting..
May 27, 2010
May 25, 2010
entry 100525
[放弃了这一个，等待着下一个]
这句话说得好，但是还需要我等待多久？
为什么？
有时我真得很累了，好像好好的休息，有时还想过就那样结束所有。
说得容易，做是很难的。
一个个都是好像在玩似的，为什么我把我的感情放下去呢？
是不是我太天真？
是不是我太傻了？
是不是我不值得去寻找？
到底是为什么呢？！
累了，我真得很累了。
放过我吧。
[Once you given up, why not wait for the Next One to appear?]
this verse has been said over and over, well, undoubtedly it's a good one, but how long more should i be waiting?
why?
i felt i have been asking why so many times that i lost count of it.
why did i put my true feelings in when it seems like each and everyone of them are like playing me out?
why so?
could it be that i am too naive?
could it be that i am stupid?
could it be that i am not worthy of seeking that special One?
WHY?
i am really tired already, please just let go of me.
Mar 28, 2010
update in mere minutes.
well, i thought to make up with the absence of myself from the blog line, i would update twice! and so i was damned to keep pressing the HELP button, so sue me for being and idiot with clumsy fingers.
I lost count of the time when i call myself a joker, idiot, a dum-dum, a brat and other craps, but i believe that i have matured over time and everytime when i call myself either of those, i am degrading myself in some way or another. No idea why am i doing that to myself but sometimes i feel that one should be more humble at times and not be a super large Vogue with you as the beautiful model on the cover page and acting cute or vain or whatever suits you.
Life as i recalled has never been better. There are times when i wished that a lightning can just struck me and let me die on the spot when i was sitting by the verandah of my house, or the huge tree might just snapped and a huge branch will whacked me in the head and i am being hospitalised for the rest of my life, well, i am grateful that none of those ever happened but somehow i always felt that if one of those unpleasant things do happen to me, the most i can do is sit and stone for the rest of my ill-fated life.
For i am a buddhist, therefore i do not believe in the concept of an Almighty deep within the sheets of cloud, but sometimes i would like to believe that miracles in many forms do appear. Remembering an experience that came close to embrace the divine would be the time when i was in National Service. Cut things short, the incident was about my prayer book not being drenched wet at all dispite being submerged in the water for a period of time, don't ask me but that is just amazing!
So many things have occured in the past few months before i even updated this place. Many will whine over the countless status updates from me that they received over a course of 2 minutes or an hour, note Ken! I think i should really get a twitter but somehow, twitter is so not my cup of tea, unless someone like Apurva suddenly took charge of my life and snap me out of my trance of the countless updates that spell emo emo emo. Well, come to think of it, it would be fun to have your life paved out in front of you for once and not worry about anything but just stay alive to complete the course of life.
Funny, how things are~
I lost count of the time when i call myself a joker, idiot, a dum-dum, a brat and other craps, but i believe that i have matured over time and everytime when i call myself either of those, i am degrading myself in some way or another. No idea why am i doing that to myself but sometimes i feel that one should be more humble at times and not be a super large Vogue with you as the beautiful model on the cover page and acting cute or vain or whatever suits you.
Life as i recalled has never been better. There are times when i wished that a lightning can just struck me and let me die on the spot when i was sitting by the verandah of my house, or the huge tree might just snapped and a huge branch will whacked me in the head and i am being hospitalised for the rest of my life, well, i am grateful that none of those ever happened but somehow i always felt that if one of those unpleasant things do happen to me, the most i can do is sit and stone for the rest of my ill-fated life.
For i am a buddhist, therefore i do not believe in the concept of an Almighty deep within the sheets of cloud, but sometimes i would like to believe that miracles in many forms do appear. Remembering an experience that came close to embrace the divine would be the time when i was in National Service. Cut things short, the incident was about my prayer book not being drenched wet at all dispite being submerged in the water for a period of time, don't ask me but that is just amazing!
So many things have occured in the past few months before i even updated this place. Many will whine over the countless status updates from me that they received over a course of 2 minutes or an hour, note Ken! I think i should really get a twitter but somehow, twitter is so not my cup of tea, unless someone like Apurva suddenly took charge of my life and snap me out of my trance of the countless updates that spell emo emo emo. Well, come to think of it, it would be fun to have your life paved out in front of you for once and not worry about anything but just stay alive to complete the course of life.
Funny, how things are~
oh my goodness..
Just like what the title implies. Oh My Goodness! It's been soo damn freaking extraordinary long that i last updated my blog, honestly speaking, i started the wonder whether the purpose of this blog is still necessary.
Well enough crap and bullshiting already, there have been many ups and downs in my life so far, i am refering to the event when my dear Indesign crashed and i had to redo a portfolio in less than 7 hours or the time when i almost broke down over the comments that came from my final that might not work, good times huh? You can't deny the existence of these feelings when you realise that it is almost time that you move on in life. Why so you might ask, well this is because, yours truly has finally graduated from Raffles International College in a birthday cake headgear as his graduation suit~! Interesting huh? for those who are interested in the hilarious and funny headgear can look up the 'mukabuku', if you know what that is.
On the other hand, i just come to realise that i am an idiot in the game of pairs. Being a joker in the court of justice could be one thing but being a sole audience in a badly maintained court of love is not really a good omen, i reckon? Hm, somehow i am still missing you badly and wishing that you can reply me or let me know what is going on though. You know who you are~
Oh ya, come april, i will be joining a hunt, anyone interested to join me? feel free to sign up though.
Till then, follow me on my mukabuku is the fastest way to keep track whether i am being hit by a lorry or i just tripped and fell into a lake and unfortunately drown..
Well enough crap and bullshiting already, there have been many ups and downs in my life so far, i am refering to the event when my dear Indesign crashed and i had to redo a portfolio in less than 7 hours or the time when i almost broke down over the comments that came from my final that might not work, good times huh? You can't deny the existence of these feelings when you realise that it is almost time that you move on in life. Why so you might ask, well this is because, yours truly has finally graduated from Raffles International College in a birthday cake headgear as his graduation suit~! Interesting huh? for those who are interested in the hilarious and funny headgear can look up the 'mukabuku', if you know what that is.
On the other hand, i just come to realise that i am an idiot in the game of pairs. Being a joker in the court of justice could be one thing but being a sole audience in a badly maintained court of love is not really a good omen, i reckon? Hm, somehow i am still missing you badly and wishing that you can reply me or let me know what is going on though. You know who you are~
Oh ya, come april, i will be joining a hunt, anyone interested to join me? feel free to sign up though.
Till then, follow me on my mukabuku is the fastest way to keep track whether i am being hit by a lorry or i just tripped and fell into a lake and unfortunately drown..
Oct 26, 2009
Is SICK~
damn..
was sick for so many days..really hate the feeling..
no mood..
no inspiration...
T.T...
hate it!!!
was sick for so many days..really hate the feeling..
no mood..
no inspiration...
T.T...
hate it!!!
Oct 13, 2009
Oct 9, 2009
It's raining and i can't sleep~
Well it is really raining and i just can't freakin' take a short nap, wonder why..hm...
anywayz, for those that follow this bloggie here, which i doubt many will, might have noticed that i have been away since like late sept? and havent been updating?!
well, to say the truth, Yes! i haven't been updating and, to say another cruel,blunt fact, i was LAZY!!!haha...
anywayz, i am suppose to be doing my work for SDS and not to mention, school work now but i decided to just let it go for another few hours and rush like a mad horse AGAIN..lolz..
just to pop by and say hello! and note i am still alive, and will update fully later..ciaoz
anywayz, for those that follow this bloggie here, which i doubt many will, might have noticed that i have been away since like late sept? and havent been updating?!
well, to say the truth, Yes! i haven't been updating and, to say another cruel,blunt fact, i was LAZY!!!haha...
anywayz, i am suppose to be doing my work for SDS and not to mention, school work now but i decided to just let it go for another few hours and rush like a mad horse AGAIN..lolz..
just to pop by and say hello! and note i am still alive, and will update fully later..ciaoz
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