Alright! the resume of my National Service Story will officially start now! Because i just keep having this thing hanging above me and it really bugs me that i can't even finish one decent chapter of my NS story straight went i arrived home from there, which is about 9 months or more...

ZOMG!!

anywayz, once i get at least 2 chapters done i will get it posted here or on a new blog, also, u might find some new addition aside from the NS stories. ^^

Will keep all readers up-to-date!!

Remembering National Service Series 5/Batch 1 HRAK,Malacca

This post was supposed to be posted yesterday (29/12) but i was caught up with something else so i did not have the time to do so.

Yesterday marked the 1st anniversary of me entering National Service in Malacca.
It was also then that i learnt to be really independant.
It was also then i realised that i was not in for hell but,in, for a life changing experience.

i will never regret the fact that i went into National Service for 2 1/2 months.
And i will never forget what my besties there in National Service, i miss u guyz!!!

Was thinking on starting a new blog, specially for my National Service Story and, maybe, short comic strips. Till then ciaoz...

鹿不再回头.The Deer will never look back again.

鹿回头，
情郎为生活远行，
回头遥望故乡，
心中想家也像伊人。

A deer looks behind it and saw,

A young man, travelling afar for his livelihood,

He looks back before his journey,

deep in His heart, He thinks of his family and, also, His lover.

我不再相信了。。。

this i will never believe again...

$%#@!#$%$%

-i lease my anger and emotions here, in this post, so it will be vulgar and freaking pissed, if you can understand my feelings now,you will know why.-

my kai-jie from NS was planning to visit KL during Xmas but because of her tuition, she decided to stay back and attend her tuition. Well, i told my parents that she be coming to visit so i am not going to Spore with them. So now i am gonna be alone for Xmas and 3 days afterward.

It really SUX!!!!

i am really pissed and want to just hit someone or just wreck the house.
i wanna lose my sanity for a moment and just lease it all out.

i can't accept the fact that you wanted to be just friends!
When u were the one that gave me hope and all!!!

i can't accept the fact that you said that you can't freaking concerntrate on your studies!!
When i did not even bother you during your revision time and exam period!!!!

i can't accept the fact that i can still sat down with you can chatted for 1/2 hour after that!!!
FUCK my idiotic gentleman attitude!!!!!

i have feelings too.
i might not seem to care but i just love you too much!!!

i want to hug you,
i want to be there for you, with you.

i don't want to be just FRIENDS!
i want to be your MAN!!

i loved thrice but this is the only time when i really feel the pain.


i can't freaking stand it anymore!!
i want to abandon my stupid gentleman behaviour!!
i want to just be ME!!!
i want to be demanding!!!
i want to be a SPOILT BRAT now!!!!

but why?
why can't i?!

无言.Speechless

现在是圣诞节
大家都在被窝里睡着了，唯有我呆着。

It's Christmas now.

Everyone's asleep,only i am still here. Awake.

没了。
破了。
碎了。

It's Gone.

It's Spoilt.

It's Unrepairable.

我的心在哭泣。
那鲜血般的眼泪，
不停的流出。。。

My heart is crying.

Its tears are the blood that flows through my veins,

dripping none stop...

我恨我自己。
因为让自己沉迷太久了。
因为让自己爱得太深了。
因为让我爱上不该爱的人。

i hate myself.

For sinking in too deep.

For loving too much.

For loving someone that's impossible to get.

不哭。。。
不，我是想停的，而是眼泪已无法再流了。

Stop crying...

No, i wanted to stop, but the tears are just pouring itself out.

忘掉以前，做回朋友吧。
我无法做到，因为我爱得太深了。

Let's be friends and forget the past.

i can't do it, because i loved you too much.

哭吧，哭吧。
眼泪流了，就可以睡了。。。

Then, cry.

Let the tears flow till you are asleep...

Summarizing Term 3

Alrite!

Summing up Term 3 before i fully enjoy my 2 week holiday...

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Graphic Design

Assignment 1 :

Presentation on a selected Designer,which i chose Daniel Brown, a London-based Web designer. He's a big shot and came a long way before he became what he is now.

Assignment 2 :

Typography Lettering.

My concept was to use animal paw prints and alphabets. Simon wanted us to play around with negative and positive space. Done with Markers and was really high for few hours.

He later asked us to create alphabets ranging from A-Z. We, those attending Graphic Design class, were really 'screaming' over it but we managed it somehow. Here's mine.

This took me 4 hours or so and the aftermath was that i was really freakin' high on Markers AGAIN!!!

Assignment 3 :

Creating a 5-series stamp and first day cover based on the animals in Zoo Negara. For that we went on a fieldtrip to Zoo Negara on a rainy day.

My concept was to use dots as dots can be used to interpret as tracking devices on animals. My slogan was 'Dotting our Existence',i mean animals like to be free and definately not to be marked as one of those endangered ones and needed to be track. Therefore the animals that i chosen were endangered ones and are natives to Malaysia or from the tropical regions.

Top:(Left to Right) False Gharial,Orang Utan, Flamingo

Below: (Left to Right) Sun Bear, Malayan Tapir

The above is the First Day Cover, i used the Zoo Negara's map and the animals that were illustrated on the stamps were marked on the map with the help of different colored Dots.

Digital Illustration

Assignment 1:

We were asked to create 3 logos for a toy company on our first lesson as the first assignment. I came up with these:

The monkey was the first and i created it while looking around A-Mac and spotted a typography assignment by one of the seniors. The blocks and stars were of random creation.

Assignment 2 :

Gradient Mesh. Using the Gradient Mesh on Illustrator to create a still life replica of a photo found online.

Assignment 3:

Use alphabets to create a typography image. I decided to go for a wedding-theme image after watching Mamma Mia, yes i watch the movie 3 times and still loves it!! I tried to duplicate the scene of Sophie's wedding but it turned out, it takes to much time so i just create something simple like this :

Assignment 4:

Create a window display for a game parlour. The must criteria was that to include 'There's always something new' and 'Coming Soon'

I decided to use a favourite game of mine as the main game advertisement. PacMan! I changed the circle 'food' that PacMan hunts for into square and the borders from square to circle.

3D Techniques

Assignments done:

Basic Poly,Lighting Testing,Creating UVs and a few more that i cannot remember.

Final Assignments:

Toy design. I wanna do something simple so i just played around with the sphere and it turned out like this after Tom helped me with the lighting and render. I named It, Welve, after Wall-E and Eve.

The last Final assignment was using Masha and pose her into 5 different poses and expressions.

Image Processing

Assignment 1 :

Monster. Create a monster from parts of animals.

After much considerations, i decided to go with a monster that is similar to Medusa but a lot more grizzly like. It has blood sucking mouth and a fuzzy attitude. It looks cute, hahaha...

Daffee wanted me to go for a kind of effect that's like someone snapping a photo of the monster. It looks like this on the computer but when printed it became dark and the effect's gone...

Assignment 2 :

Draw your friend's potrait using only brushes or basic Photoshop tools.

i chose Apurva while she's stuck with me...Her's face was one of the easiest part of the whole assignment. It was really hard to create her hair as it was curly and yet straight, so it was kinda hard.

By the final week of this assignment, Daffee decided to add a twist. He wanted us to create a random image of our friend in a different expression or totally different look. I chose to make Apurva into a man, which i think makes her look like Michael Jackson, sorry Apurva.

The Final Product was printed on A2 and her original photo was placed side by side with the male version of Apurva.

Assignment 3 :

He gave us 3 choices for this: Pareidolia, Supernatural and Celebrity Toy. i chose Celebrity Toy. After giving Daffee various selections of celebrity that might be made into a doll, he decided to chosose Dato' Michelle Yeoh, which really suits me. i am a big fan of hers!!

Making her doll wasn't easy. i had a really hard time making her look 3D. The final result was reasonably satisfying but i still think that there is room for improvements.

The second assignment was to use the famous Manaki/Zhao Cai Cat to create a Christmas Card.

My idea was to use the figure and re-create it into a Christmas spirit one. So i added presents on the heels of the cat and added a big red bag replacing the gold its holding and add on a santa's hat. Daffee later wanted me to put it on a table in a living room with a Christmas Tree.

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That sums up all of my Term 3.1's assignments.

So till 4.1 starts, i be taking a well-earned break.

Updates

Recently, i have been really working hard on all of my finals. It's tough as i have only 2 weeks time to finish everything,including printed and approved.ARGH!!

This is because i will be leaving for Hainan Island on the 13th to 17th Dec for a short vacation with the BIG gang,my family,uncle's family,grandparents and auntie's two children. A total of 13 people will be charging into Haikou's International Airport soon. We have been anticipating this trip for like 3 years? Since the day my grandpa mentioned it casually over dinner to my parents.

The main objective, of us going there, would be the wish of my grandpa wanting us, his grandchildren and his own children to see the place he was raised and to, maybe, visit some of his relatives there. Owh ya, i think we still have a house there, which is currently being lived in by my grandpa's sis, so that makes her,um...,my grand aunt?


Well enough of that, i had to go back to my Dollie and Miao already. Ciaoz~

等待

天上的星星照耀着黑暗的夜空。

已是深夜了。

你不睡觉，
却埋力的读书，
好应付明天的会考。

美丽的月亮在迷茫的夜空看守。

已是三更。

我在书房里，
赶着功课，
好应付明天老师检验。

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都说

山伯与英台，三天差别，英台逼嫁文才，山伯病倒身亡。
嫦娥与后异，相爱，因日月差别，不能再一起。
牛郎与织女，凡人与仙女，翻天条，只于七月初七相会。

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我可以为你，
化蝶，因英台为会山伯，愿成蝶，与他长久相随。

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我可以把让天空成月全食，
因猛烈的太阳方能会雪白的月亮。

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我愿意等待喜鹊桥的出现，
才与你相会。




我是真心的爱你。。。

妒忌

我好妒忌。。。
看到你们的背影足足，让我觉得你们是否还把我看在眼里。
是否还把我当成朋友。

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我只怪我自己当初没和大伙儿常参在一块。
我不想怪谁。
我只怪我自己。

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那一天听到你们开心的谈说，

我不经沉静了一会儿。

可是不到一分钟后，你往我方向看，问道：

“诶，你还好吧？为何那么的安静？”

“。。。”

“嘿，你还好吗？有事烦着你吗？”


我从沉静里醒过来。


“啊，没有啦。自是想着功课而已。”

“别想了。才刚上完课就想着功课。你啊，是无药可救啊！”

“哈哈。。。”

“诶，要吃么？”

“要！”

“那去点菜呀！”



那一刻起，
我不再认为你们抛弃我。